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Well There is something that has been bothering me So i am deciding to write it in here. OK well Big John( my moms B/F) for ppl who dont kno who im talking about... has been really upsettign em lately, he even made me cry with out knowing. He acts like Because I am a girl I should be treated wrongly, or unfairly. He treats the boys, well especcially David. That kid is like worshipped for actign liek an asshole to everyoen besides Big JOhn. I hate it so much, it is so unfair. I mean yeah just because i am a girl it feels liek i am treated horribly, would he prefer if i got like a sex change? Because if that meant I would be treated fairly i would do it in a heart beat. Another thing is he says i have no personal responibility!!!! Are u freaking serious!! Thats why I just got home from shoppign wiht my mom and gettign razors, faily toothpaste, me a new toothbrush, shampoo conditioner, a new shower curtain, and I am getting a Job so i can stop depending on other people and so i can do things on my own!!!!!!! I shower all the time i brush my teeth i wash my face daily, what more does he want from me!??!?!?! OK yea every once and a while I do somehting wrong, but im a teenager! I am not perfect!! No one is, especcially him! OK he got mad at me for not doign the dishes that werent even origionally mine, he flipped out on me tellign me i was missign the point, bec. my mom aske dme to do them and i said yea, but i didnt bec i realised that they werent mine to do anyways, and when i dont do mine they are left for me. So i decided to do the same , its only fair. Was that so wrong of me to get screamed at and comments made at me untill i felt like shit? He makes so many comments about me i hate, it gets so bad sometimes i dotn even want to be here anymore. One day I am goign to just leave and go to a friends house and not call and just coem home the next day, and see how he feels not knowing where i am or if anythign happend. becasue most parents feel liek that all teh tiem because there kids just go out and do what ever. I am sorry i dont want to brag or make me seem all teh great because i am not, but I alwasy call hoem i am hoem when they tell me to, I dotn smoke i dont do drugs, yeah i drink but only at home when they say i can!!!!!! So I really dotn undersatnd why i am treated thew way I am at home. If he wants to keep making all these comments to me and think of me so lowly, and make me feel like liek shit......two words to you ...* Screw you!!!!* Im done feelign like crap for nothing!!