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And all my armor falling down, in a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep
I need to get out, i have to get out! i feel so suffocated. i hate it, i hate almost everything right now except for my friends, which i seem to running low on these days. I wish things could go back to the way they used to be. I miss michael. i dont think anyone will ever know how much i do. I wish things could go back to when i was younger and i liked my parents and i thought that i was so lucky because i had this perfect family. I suppose that was what i was taught to think. But now that i have a mind of my own i know its not like that. Ive realized how fucked up my family is how fucked up my relationship with my parents is. We never get along anymore and everything we say will always result in a fight. I wish i could go back to the days when i wanted the school bell to ring and i wanted to go home....nowa days i sit in 4th period and i pray for some reason the bell just wont ring, because i know when it does i have to go home. I wish i tried to walk faster to the car so i can get home faster but i dont, i think maybe if i walk slow enough they will just leave me and i wont have to go home. I wish i liked inviting people over to my house on the weekends, but i dont. The only thing i wont to do is go elsewhere away from my house, away from my parents. Everyone reading this is probably think that i am just this spoiled brat who needs to stop complaining...but whatever
Can't run fast enough
Can't hide I can't fly
I'm struggling with the limits of this ordinary life
I'm just a
Just a
Just a first try
And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep
I need to get out, i have to get out! i feel so suffocated. i hate it, i hate almost everything right now except for my friends, which i seem to running low on these days. I wish things could go back to the way they used to be. I miss michael. i dont think anyone will ever know how much i do. I wish things could go back to when i was younger and i liked my parents and i thought that i was so lucky because i had this perfect family. I suppose that was what i was taught to think. But now that i have a mind of my own i know its not like that. Ive realized how fucked up my family is how fucked up my relationship with my parents is. We never get along anymore and everything we say will always result in a fight. I wish i could go back to the days when i wanted the school bell to ring and i wanted to go home....nowa days i sit in 4th period and i pray for some reason the bell just wont ring, because i know when it does i have to go home. I wish i tried to walk faster to the car so i can get home faster but i dont, i think maybe if i walk slow enough they will just leave me and i wont have to go home. I wish i liked inviting people over to my house on the weekends, but i dont. The only thing i wont to do is go elsewhere away from my house, away from my parents. Everyone reading this is probably think that i am just this spoiled brat who needs to stop complaining...but whatever
Can't run fast enough
Can't hide I can't fly
I'm struggling with the limits of this ordinary life
I'm just a
Just a
Just a first try