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so once again i dont really know what to write...i guess my life has been alright lately, really confusing with robbie but ill get there...
kristen and justin hayward contacted me recently. justin is the kid we met on the cruise when i was like 17! it was so cool to talk to him again. im glad kristen messaged me, esp considering the people ive had to talk to lately...
so theres this certain person who i will not name but this person keeps bitching about robbie and complaining that he opens his mouth but that person was opening their mouth to EVERYONE...total hypocrit. ugh i could go on but i wont bother.. i wnat to stay positive...well...eh
recap from the past few months: school is demanding and hard but i like it. i hate stonehill though, grr. my dads officially moving on saturday. happy thanksgiving holly youre homeless
ugh why am i crying right now...friday night me and robbie slept at my house. i cut myself for the first time in over a year. i have no clue why the fuck i did it. but i promised myself that was the last time. =/
so about robbie: we had an awesome summer and we were awesome til he talked to erica. then that whole eoisode happened and we got together again and were fine..but now his depression caused him to break up w me and it causes him to take his anger out on me and i hate it, but i am the only one who uindersatands and im his only friend basically so i cant just up and leave.. i wish there was a way to make him know how i feel without ending our friendship because we do have a good friendship even tho were not together right now. and we are sticking to jsut friends. but for example last night he was on and off wit the niceness idk what to do...i had to go to the hospital last night because im still haveing that stomach problem (since april) and they dont know whats wrong but they think its an ulcer so they gave me vicotin. yummy.
i realyl dont know what to say! i hate when that happens. hopefully im getting that apartment for the summer ill be psyched! im tryin to be happy but i havent been lately and its because i wish i could help robbie but i feel like i cant do anything and he wont see a psychiatrist. i worry so much about ihm. he cuts himself and always talks about suicide. what pisses me off is that he texted erica after she sent him a msg and i cant get mad bc were jsut friends but i am mad bc she fucked him up so bad. i wann kill her! grrrr anyway i ggotta go the roomie is back
<3me
'here lies a man who lived life for all it was worth'
kristen and justin hayward contacted me recently. justin is the kid we met on the cruise when i was like 17! it was so cool to talk to him again. im glad kristen messaged me, esp considering the people ive had to talk to lately...
so theres this certain person who i will not name but this person keeps bitching about robbie and complaining that he opens his mouth but that person was opening their mouth to EVERYONE...total hypocrit. ugh i could go on but i wont bother.. i wnat to stay positive...well...eh
recap from the past few months: school is demanding and hard but i like it. i hate stonehill though, grr. my dads officially moving on saturday. happy thanksgiving holly youre homeless
ugh why am i crying right now...friday night me and robbie slept at my house. i cut myself for the first time in over a year. i have no clue why the fuck i did it. but i promised myself that was the last time. =/
so about robbie: we had an awesome summer and we were awesome til he talked to erica. then that whole eoisode happened and we got together again and were fine..but now his depression caused him to break up w me and it causes him to take his anger out on me and i hate it, but i am the only one who uindersatands and im his only friend basically so i cant just up and leave.. i wish there was a way to make him know how i feel without ending our friendship because we do have a good friendship even tho were not together right now. and we are sticking to jsut friends. but for example last night he was on and off wit the niceness idk what to do...i had to go to the hospital last night because im still haveing that stomach problem (since april) and they dont know whats wrong but they think its an ulcer so they gave me vicotin. yummy.
i realyl dont know what to say! i hate when that happens. hopefully im getting that apartment for the summer ill be psyched! im tryin to be happy but i havent been lately and its because i wish i could help robbie but i feel like i cant do anything and he wont see a psychiatrist. i worry so much about ihm. he cuts himself and always talks about suicide. what pisses me off is that he texted erica after she sent him a msg and i cant get mad bc were jsut friends but i am mad bc she fucked him up so bad. i wann kill her! grrrr anyway i ggotta go the roomie is back
<3me
'here lies a man who lived life for all it was worth'