I'm sorry, maybe I was mumbling...
I was reading everyones entries today and I thought boy, its been a while so I said to myself, "self, I think its time you updated" and so here I am...
I'm going to chicago in 3 weeks to visit John Holland (and chicago) and I am stoked, and I thought everyone should know...
Classes are going well but I still lack so much motivation academically. I can't bring myself to do my work early. I have periods where I do nothing and then I have all sorts of tests and papers and I just stress out. yikes. I have a paper due monday that I have yet to begin. Haven't even done the readings for it yet and somehow that doesn't concern me in the least. I know I am smart, certainly above average, but I wish I were REALLY smart. So smart that I stuck out, smart enough to be on jeopardy or to make some great discovery. Its not that I think I'll amount to nothing, but that I wish I could become SOMETHING.
I want to do so many things with my life and I feel like that leaves me at this awkward point right now where I have to sit down and decide how I am going to do this, except...I'm not ready for that. Theres so much work in what I want to do and I lack the time and the money. Or, really mostly the money I suppose. I want to teach math, I want to see kids understand, I want to give kids that lightbulb moment with concepts theyd never thought theyd grasp. At the same time I want to work in an aftercare program. I want to make a difference. I want to work against the things I've experienced. But how do I go about doing both of these? I can't go to grad school for two things, but I want to. Ahhhh...
I want to learn spanish and be able to speak it fluently. I want to travel the world. I want to know about other cultures. I want to know about politics and be able to have intelligent, informed, political conversations with people. I want a cause. I want to fall deeply in love with someone who loves being in love with me. I want to be happy, to have a roof to live under and a car to take me places, but mostly just to be happy. I want to write a novel. I want to be rich only so that I can give money whenever somebody needs it. College is a harsh introduction to the real world...
This little light of mine
I'm gonna let it shine
Let it shine
Let it shine
Let it shine....
I'm going to chicago in 3 weeks to visit John Holland (and chicago) and I am stoked, and I thought everyone should know...
Classes are going well but I still lack so much motivation academically. I can't bring myself to do my work early. I have periods where I do nothing and then I have all sorts of tests and papers and I just stress out. yikes. I have a paper due monday that I have yet to begin. Haven't even done the readings for it yet and somehow that doesn't concern me in the least. I know I am smart, certainly above average, but I wish I were REALLY smart. So smart that I stuck out, smart enough to be on jeopardy or to make some great discovery. Its not that I think I'll amount to nothing, but that I wish I could become SOMETHING.
I want to do so many things with my life and I feel like that leaves me at this awkward point right now where I have to sit down and decide how I am going to do this, except...I'm not ready for that. Theres so much work in what I want to do and I lack the time and the money. Or, really mostly the money I suppose. I want to teach math, I want to see kids understand, I want to give kids that lightbulb moment with concepts theyd never thought theyd grasp. At the same time I want to work in an aftercare program. I want to make a difference. I want to work against the things I've experienced. But how do I go about doing both of these? I can't go to grad school for two things, but I want to. Ahhhh...
I want to learn spanish and be able to speak it fluently. I want to travel the world. I want to know about other cultures. I want to know about politics and be able to have intelligent, informed, political conversations with people. I want a cause. I want to fall deeply in love with someone who loves being in love with me. I want to be happy, to have a roof to live under and a car to take me places, but mostly just to be happy. I want to write a novel. I want to be rich only so that I can give money whenever somebody needs it. College is a harsh introduction to the real world...
This little light of mine
I'm gonna let it shine
Let it shine
Let it shine
Let it shine....