Mar 21, 2006 19:37
I am not homophobic (am I?). In fact, I pride myself in being open-minded, for embracing adversity. So, why can't I be excited and happy for my daughter when she tells me of a new (female) relationship? It's not that I ever think less of her girl friends than I do her boy friends. I love and respect all of her friends, just as I love and respect Blyss. Accepting people for who they are isn't the hard part. Maybe it's just that I really don't understand the hows and whys of it all... maybe it's because I have this "conventional" dream for my children and that's not easy to let go of. Reality never quite seems to match up to our childhood Shangri-la, does it?
My son is a drug addict and this makes me incredibly sad. I worry that he might not live to find his true purpose in life. It would make me so happy to watch him become a productive member of society; but I love him and accept him for who he is. My stepson got his 15 year old girl friend pregnant and he can't seem to keep a job; but I give him credit for sticking by his girl and doing his best to take care of twin daughters. Then there is Blyss, my bisexual daughter. Blyss IS making good choices, she has good friends, and she is an awesome person. I love her with all my heart. Hopefully, one day I will be able to completely and totally embrace her in all her relationships. In the meantime, I hope that she is also trying to understand me! Aaurgh. Life is such a challenge sometimes!