feeling crappy :(
I guess the saying it never rains but it pours is happening to me at the moment...life is full of problems for everyone i konw this, but soon as i get one problem..there seems to be 10 problems that follow. im not saying my life is bad coz it aint...im lucky compared to alot of people but i guess that means that wen i do get a few problems it feels like my world is falling apart and my emotions are intensified 1000 times more. i try to live by the statement- try to concentrate on what you DO have not what you DONT have but atm i feeel incredibly depressed and its hard to focus on that. first off my family are having a few family issues...mainly between my dad, brother and mum...my brother is pulling himself away from my mum coz of god knows what...and dont seem to have much to do with us lately and im getting effected coz i live here...i dont see my neices much anymore...and my brother wants my dads women that he had an affair with to be involved in this family...she can go to hell...she aint being part of us...i cant help liking my dads little boy tho coz hes a splitting image of me wen i was young...but it hurts to look at those kids knowing they were produced out of lies, hurt and something that nearly made my mom kill herself over.
my nan and pop are overseas and my nan is manic depressive and isnt taking her medication and we are trying to get her back to australia so we can help her but shes on a high atm and wont take her medication and my pop is really stressed out and its stressing the family out. my sister is having health problems and we still dont know what it is yet shes undergoing more tests, im having those health problems still where im throwing up im always tired and always feel like shit...i dont have energy to exercise and im getting fat and lazy and that makes me feel like shit too.
work told me that shifts are getting cut back and i might not have much work if any..which means im prob gonna have to find a new job or something..exams start on the 12th novemember..im failing 2 subjects at uni and if i dont pass these exams i would have just spent half of a year wasting it. even passing these exams might not mean i will pass uni this semester :( ok well i cant be bothered writing any more but i will try to write in this journal more often coz it helps writing ur feelings down.
my nan and pop are overseas and my nan is manic depressive and isnt taking her medication and we are trying to get her back to australia so we can help her but shes on a high atm and wont take her medication and my pop is really stressed out and its stressing the family out. my sister is having health problems and we still dont know what it is yet shes undergoing more tests, im having those health problems still where im throwing up im always tired and always feel like shit...i dont have energy to exercise and im getting fat and lazy and that makes me feel like shit too.
work told me that shifts are getting cut back and i might not have much work if any..which means im prob gonna have to find a new job or something..exams start on the 12th novemember..im failing 2 subjects at uni and if i dont pass these exams i would have just spent half of a year wasting it. even passing these exams might not mean i will pass uni this semester :( ok well i cant be bothered writing any more but i will try to write in this journal more often coz it helps writing ur feelings down.