3rd Anniversary
Man, I'm such a bad fan. I was talking to saturnianlove earlier today about NEWS and KAT-TUN and then I realized that I forgot about my 3 year anniversary. It's now officially 3 years since I've been in the JE world, 3 years since I fell for Jin's voice/dancing/baka personality, 3 years since I've had a crush on a guy. Hahaha. No, no, the last statement is false. But I haven't had a boyfriend in my entire life yet...and maybe JE's playing a big role in that. JE boys set the bar too high for normal everyday boys that they can't possibly compete with guys such as the idols Jin, Yamapi, Ryo. Though, in real life, honestly, I probably wouldn't fall for Jin nor Ryo. I wonder about Yamapi...Haha.
So in three years, I don't think anything about me has changed that much. Except maybe I'm more "fob" now. At lunch today, one of neighbors asked me, "Lillian, why are you so Asian?" Funny thing because just earlier in the week, I heard a Caucasian person remarking that that person is "So Asian!". I was offended at that time, but when my neighbor asked me, I didn't feel offended. Anyway, this has nothing to do with my 3 year anniversary. Haha. Except maybe people think I'm so Asian because of the JE guys on my wall, on my AIM icon, etc.
In any case, 3 years is indeed a very long time in the fandom world. But one thing is for sure: I've matured from the me three years ago. Ah~ I remember way back then, I used to have dreams about Jin and fantasize about him being my boyfriend and all that jazz. Even though I knew he had an unattractive personality in real life, I was willing to overlook that and continue living in my own little world. LOL. Yeah. And believe me, that lasted for more than a year. Even when Jin announced his hiatus, I was still crying, still thinking that my life was over.
But now, I feel much more grown-up. I don't know if that's a good thing or not though. If anything, I'm sure it is a much healthier relationship that I have between my idols and myself. I don't have those dreams about them as much anymore, but I still like watching their dramas, even if it's not with me they're falling in love with. XD And...I kinda wish that they would be able to carry normal lives one day--as in they can marry when they want, raise their own families and have outings without getting mobbed, even in another country (poor Yamapi in Korea!). Though I guess it might be too hard because not everyone can be like Takuya who can say he's getting married when he wants and who he's dating.
And for JE, I can only say thank you to Johnny for creating such prince-like idols that we can fantasize over. Even if more than half of us will not be able to find that one guy who resembles Yamapi, Jin, etc, it was good knowing that such "personalities" do exist in our world. Personality in quotes because they aren't like that in real life. At least there're people to fantansize about, to cheer us up when we're down, to provide us with "entertainment" *lol*.
So to Jin: Thanks for being with me these past three years (though you weren't there for half a year). It's been a really fun. Don't worry. I'm not going anywhere. And even if I do, I'll still be keeping up to date with you since you are Jin, my first idol and still #1.
To Yamapi: Thanks for being such a wonderful friend to Jin. For putting up with his horrible personality and sticking close to him. I'm glad that you guys are in different groups because they your friendship isn't a fake one. It's a tangible one that you guys built together. Thanks for looking really hot in Kurosagi and in Code Blue. You will always be up there with Jin.
And to all the other guys: thanks for all the fun times also. I'm sorry for not liking you guys as much. =X
And to that: keep working hard! <3
OH yeah. PIN LOVE. I'm so buying Popolo Jan. Already reserved my copy! ^_^
So in three years, I don't think anything about me has changed that much. Except maybe I'm more "fob" now. At lunch today, one of neighbors asked me, "Lillian, why are you so Asian?" Funny thing because just earlier in the week, I heard a Caucasian person remarking that that person is "So Asian!". I was offended at that time, but when my neighbor asked me, I didn't feel offended. Anyway, this has nothing to do with my 3 year anniversary. Haha. Except maybe people think I'm so Asian because of the JE guys on my wall, on my AIM icon, etc.
In any case, 3 years is indeed a very long time in the fandom world. But one thing is for sure: I've matured from the me three years ago. Ah~ I remember way back then, I used to have dreams about Jin and fantasize about him being my boyfriend and all that jazz. Even though I knew he had an unattractive personality in real life, I was willing to overlook that and continue living in my own little world. LOL. Yeah. And believe me, that lasted for more than a year. Even when Jin announced his hiatus, I was still crying, still thinking that my life was over.
But now, I feel much more grown-up. I don't know if that's a good thing or not though. If anything, I'm sure it is a much healthier relationship that I have between my idols and myself. I don't have those dreams about them as much anymore, but I still like watching their dramas, even if it's not with me they're falling in love with. XD And...I kinda wish that they would be able to carry normal lives one day--as in they can marry when they want, raise their own families and have outings without getting mobbed, even in another country (poor Yamapi in Korea!). Though I guess it might be too hard because not everyone can be like Takuya who can say he's getting married when he wants and who he's dating.
And for JE, I can only say thank you to Johnny for creating such prince-like idols that we can fantasize over. Even if more than half of us will not be able to find that one guy who resembles Yamapi, Jin, etc, it was good knowing that such "personalities" do exist in our world. Personality in quotes because they aren't like that in real life. At least there're people to fantansize about, to cheer us up when we're down, to provide us with "entertainment" *lol*.
So to Jin: Thanks for being with me these past three years (though you weren't there for half a year). It's been a really fun. Don't worry. I'm not going anywhere. And even if I do, I'll still be keeping up to date with you since you are Jin, my first idol and still #1.
To Yamapi: Thanks for being such a wonderful friend to Jin. For putting up with his horrible personality and sticking close to him. I'm glad that you guys are in different groups because they your friendship isn't a fake one. It's a tangible one that you guys built together. Thanks for looking really hot in Kurosagi and in Code Blue. You will always be up there with Jin.
And to all the other guys: thanks for all the fun times also. I'm sorry for not liking you guys as much. =X
And to that: keep working hard! <3
OH yeah. PIN LOVE. I'm so buying Popolo Jan. Already reserved my copy! ^_^