No Day but Today
Hi guys,
I know that by this point most of you know what happened. We all loved and cared for Martin so much. I can't believe that my best friend and favorite man in the whole entire world is gone. I just wish that I could have talked to him yesterday, but, he was at work all day. I wish I could have spent the last few months with him, but I know that nothing I do can change what happened. I am just glad that he had some of you amazing people there with him this summer, because you all helped him fulfil his dreams. I love my brother so much, and the fact that I have gotten so many calls and everything and read so many kind words about my brother already just makes me know that he was more than loved by just about everyone he knew.
My brother was basically my role model. He got me obsessed with Broadway, most specifically Rent, both of ours favorite show. I am so lucky that I got to go see it with him in May. I'm sure that made like, number 50 for him, but I know that that will be the most special time I will ever see it. It makes me so sad to know that he will not be able to see the Rent movie, but, well, I'm sure he's already gotten the sneak preview of it up there in Heaven. I know he is in a better place. I just remember one of the last things that I said to him was the any girl would be lucky to be with him. And we all know that it is true. Any person in the world would have been lucky to have even known him. I just can't face it. I don't know what I am going to do without him. My Bubba. My one true love. I don't think I will ever love another man as much as I love my brother for the rest of my life. I just wish I could have seen him more recently. I barely even got to see him when I was home earlier this month.
I know he wouldn't want us to be so sad. We know he is in a better place now, smiling down on us with one of his goofy, silly smiles, probably singing and dancing to Cabaret with Bob Fosse. I followed my brother through almost everything. We were in like, all of the same clubs in High School, and, well, even got to have some classes together.
I have the most perfect picture of him. From my Graduation, which I am so lucky that he was able to come to. I remember Martin and Margarete rushed to come to my Graduation, and I was so scared that they wouldn't make it, but, when I was sitting up there at the church, I looked out and saw both of them sitting there. I remember Martin made fun of me for crying at my Graduation, but I was bawling. I love him so much. But yes, the picture. It is right after my Graduation, and it is of me and Bubba. Bubba is grabbing my face with my hand and basically devouring my face. Yes, so Bubba. I will have to post it on here for all of you to see, because I'm sure it will make you laugh. I don't think a day went by in Martin's life that he didn't make someone laugh. He was so silly and goofy, and original and crazy. What will I do without him? He was my best friend, and he knew me better than probably anyone in the world, and I feel like I knew him better than anyone in the whole entire world. Last night before I found out, I was listening to Brick by Ben Folds Five, which is just so ironic, because they were one of Martin's favorite bands, and well, Ben Folds is even performing in Atlanta next week. I am going to try and see if they will somehow honor my brother there, because I know how much he loved Ben Folds, and I think he even wanted to go to the concert. If arrangements conflict, I may not be able to go, but, I really am going to try my hardest to go to that concert, for my brother. He would love it so much if I went to that concert, and I am going to try my hardest to do it for my brother. I think if you all can go, too, that would be pretty cool. I am going to try to go the Sixty Second Track concert tonight, as well. They are, after all, honoring my brother, and it would be such an honor to be there. I thank the guys so much for doing that for my brother.
Well, I know I could go on writing about the most wonderful human being that I will ever know, so I guess I will bring this to a close. There are no words really, despite this really long entry, that can express what I am feeling right now, and that I am sure the majority of you are feeling right now as well. Just be strong, and know that my brother is in a much better place right now. We all know it is true.
Here are some pictures for you guys to help you, and me, remember the good times we had with Martin.
At my Graduation, being silly as usual.
Bubba and Jack, probably Bubba's biggest fan.
Bubba and me at Prom last year. I should've just listened to everyone and really gone with my brother, he he, I'm sure he would have made the perfect date.
I think this was from our birthday celebration last year at Johnny's Pizza. Oh Bubba, he was such an interesting, crazy guy. He made THE BEST cakes at Coldstone!
Well, guys, I am leaving on a flight at noon. I will be home soon. Stay strong, and comfort those around you. I will see most of you guys soon. Thank you so much for being here for me, I don't know what I would have done without you guys. I just know that the crazy thing is is that I know most of my friends because of my brother. I would have been nothing without him. I love you Bubba. I will see you someday in Heaven, where it will all be better. I love you so much.
Nicole
I know that by this point most of you know what happened. We all loved and cared for Martin so much. I can't believe that my best friend and favorite man in the whole entire world is gone. I just wish that I could have talked to him yesterday, but, he was at work all day. I wish I could have spent the last few months with him, but I know that nothing I do can change what happened. I am just glad that he had some of you amazing people there with him this summer, because you all helped him fulfil his dreams. I love my brother so much, and the fact that I have gotten so many calls and everything and read so many kind words about my brother already just makes me know that he was more than loved by just about everyone he knew.
My brother was basically my role model. He got me obsessed with Broadway, most specifically Rent, both of ours favorite show. I am so lucky that I got to go see it with him in May. I'm sure that made like, number 50 for him, but I know that that will be the most special time I will ever see it. It makes me so sad to know that he will not be able to see the Rent movie, but, well, I'm sure he's already gotten the sneak preview of it up there in Heaven. I know he is in a better place. I just remember one of the last things that I said to him was the any girl would be lucky to be with him. And we all know that it is true. Any person in the world would have been lucky to have even known him. I just can't face it. I don't know what I am going to do without him. My Bubba. My one true love. I don't think I will ever love another man as much as I love my brother for the rest of my life. I just wish I could have seen him more recently. I barely even got to see him when I was home earlier this month.
I know he wouldn't want us to be so sad. We know he is in a better place now, smiling down on us with one of his goofy, silly smiles, probably singing and dancing to Cabaret with Bob Fosse. I followed my brother through almost everything. We were in like, all of the same clubs in High School, and, well, even got to have some classes together.
I have the most perfect picture of him. From my Graduation, which I am so lucky that he was able to come to. I remember Martin and Margarete rushed to come to my Graduation, and I was so scared that they wouldn't make it, but, when I was sitting up there at the church, I looked out and saw both of them sitting there. I remember Martin made fun of me for crying at my Graduation, but I was bawling. I love him so much. But yes, the picture. It is right after my Graduation, and it is of me and Bubba. Bubba is grabbing my face with my hand and basically devouring my face. Yes, so Bubba. I will have to post it on here for all of you to see, because I'm sure it will make you laugh. I don't think a day went by in Martin's life that he didn't make someone laugh. He was so silly and goofy, and original and crazy. What will I do without him? He was my best friend, and he knew me better than probably anyone in the world, and I feel like I knew him better than anyone in the whole entire world. Last night before I found out, I was listening to Brick by Ben Folds Five, which is just so ironic, because they were one of Martin's favorite bands, and well, Ben Folds is even performing in Atlanta next week. I am going to try and see if they will somehow honor my brother there, because I know how much he loved Ben Folds, and I think he even wanted to go to the concert. If arrangements conflict, I may not be able to go, but, I really am going to try my hardest to go to that concert, for my brother. He would love it so much if I went to that concert, and I am going to try my hardest to do it for my brother. I think if you all can go, too, that would be pretty cool. I am going to try to go the Sixty Second Track concert tonight, as well. They are, after all, honoring my brother, and it would be such an honor to be there. I thank the guys so much for doing that for my brother.
Well, I know I could go on writing about the most wonderful human being that I will ever know, so I guess I will bring this to a close. There are no words really, despite this really long entry, that can express what I am feeling right now, and that I am sure the majority of you are feeling right now as well. Just be strong, and know that my brother is in a much better place right now. We all know it is true.
Here are some pictures for you guys to help you, and me, remember the good times we had with Martin.
At my Graduation, being silly as usual.
Bubba and Jack, probably Bubba's biggest fan.
Bubba and me at Prom last year. I should've just listened to everyone and really gone with my brother, he he, I'm sure he would have made the perfect date.
I think this was from our birthday celebration last year at Johnny's Pizza. Oh Bubba, he was such an interesting, crazy guy. He made THE BEST cakes at Coldstone!
Well, guys, I am leaving on a flight at noon. I will be home soon. Stay strong, and comfort those around you. I will see most of you guys soon. Thank you so much for being here for me, I don't know what I would have done without you guys. I just know that the crazy thing is is that I know most of my friends because of my brother. I would have been nothing without him. I love you Bubba. I will see you someday in Heaven, where it will all be better. I love you so much.
Nicole