Tired of being alone
Yea, so it's christmas eve, and i'm all by myself...
and tomorrow on christmas, I will be all by myself
And new years...... I will... be all by myself
I am so very upset right now...
I don't evne know, I can't stop crying and being upset. I got really dicked over by my friends yesterday, twice. Didn't even get to exchange gifts... SO I assumed they would make an effort to do it with me tonight... No such effort. I'm just upset because it was supposed to be everyone and it was supposed to be planned, and oh it was planned but they didtn' make sure everyone could go and that right there is messed up considering I got the hugest attitude in the world directed at me for questioning their plans. Fuck that.
I thought I had friends who cared about me, I thought they would understand..> But whatever, I guess its all about them now... I'm tired of trying.
And tonight my sisters were just home, and my sister heather knows I'm upset adn she's trying to make me happy, but I don't think anything will make me happy. My other sister is only making me more upset, and has made me cry twice in like, twenty minutes.
Tommorow is going to be horrible.
New years is going to be even worse, I've never spent one of them alone...
Bah humbug
and tomorrow on christmas, I will be all by myself
And new years...... I will... be all by myself
I am so very upset right now...
I don't evne know, I can't stop crying and being upset. I got really dicked over by my friends yesterday, twice. Didn't even get to exchange gifts... SO I assumed they would make an effort to do it with me tonight... No such effort. I'm just upset because it was supposed to be everyone and it was supposed to be planned, and oh it was planned but they didtn' make sure everyone could go and that right there is messed up considering I got the hugest attitude in the world directed at me for questioning their plans. Fuck that.
I thought I had friends who cared about me, I thought they would understand..> But whatever, I guess its all about them now... I'm tired of trying.
And tonight my sisters were just home, and my sister heather knows I'm upset adn she's trying to make me happy, but I don't think anything will make me happy. My other sister is only making me more upset, and has made me cry twice in like, twenty minutes.
Tommorow is going to be horrible.
New years is going to be even worse, I've never spent one of them alone...
Bah humbug