Fixation for your Emotions.
Wow, so much is going on lately that I don't even know where to start.
In the last week my life has changed dramatically,
but if you were to ask me what changed
I dont think I'd be able to tell you...
I almost feel different.
19 comes and all of a sudden I'm becoming a more mature, grown up individual.
I dont know, its stupid.
Anyways, my broken heart is healed.
I'm over everything he did to me,
and in my opinion he will never be apart of my life.
we tried to be friends but his constant lying hurts and he doesnt even know it.
"Dont call me ever again. Dont even have my name in your thoughts anymore."
Kind of harsh, but thats what I said.
maybe I was a little upset?
I was thinking alot about the whole "men" issue.
everyone gets hurt, shit happens.
And I really do want to find someone that will return to me the love that I have to give.
there is so much inside of me that it would be rude not to share.
So I made myself a mini-list of qualities I blindly look for in a guy.
-hopeless romantic
-funny
-passionate about music
-looks beyond everyday expectations
-has goals.
-can hold a conversation
-kind
-compassionate
-treats his family well
-affectionate
-honest
-spontaneous
Those are just a few I suppose,
other things factor in too.
I just want someone who isnt afraid to tell me the truth,
I dont care if it hurts my feelings,
I'll might be mad at you for 5 minutes but I'll get over it.
thats just the way I am.
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The other day at work I saw this girls face go red.
It got me thinking...
when you are injured for example cut
all the blood rushes to that one spot
sending white blood cells that heal.
therefore,
when someone is embarrassed, and their face goes red
is this due to white blood cells rushing to your emotions
and trying to heal?
haha whatever,
How come all my friends are spread out around the world?
I think I want to go to Australia soon to see Phoon.
The ones in Europe will come home soon enough
and I'll go see them.
I think I just need some quality time with certain people.
I have so much to talk about!
Boys- I think I could like another one, school- 5 weeks left, babies, family, friends, everything!
but I'm too lazy now.
Alas, I will post again...soon.
In the last week my life has changed dramatically,
but if you were to ask me what changed
I dont think I'd be able to tell you...
I almost feel different.
19 comes and all of a sudden I'm becoming a more mature, grown up individual.
I dont know, its stupid.
Anyways, my broken heart is healed.
I'm over everything he did to me,
and in my opinion he will never be apart of my life.
we tried to be friends but his constant lying hurts and he doesnt even know it.
"Dont call me ever again. Dont even have my name in your thoughts anymore."
Kind of harsh, but thats what I said.
maybe I was a little upset?
I was thinking alot about the whole "men" issue.
everyone gets hurt, shit happens.
And I really do want to find someone that will return to me the love that I have to give.
there is so much inside of me that it would be rude not to share.
So I made myself a mini-list of qualities I blindly look for in a guy.
-hopeless romantic
-funny
-passionate about music
-looks beyond everyday expectations
-has goals.
-can hold a conversation
-kind
-compassionate
-treats his family well
-affectionate
-honest
-spontaneous
Those are just a few I suppose,
other things factor in too.
I just want someone who isnt afraid to tell me the truth,
I dont care if it hurts my feelings,
I'll might be mad at you for 5 minutes but I'll get over it.
thats just the way I am.
___________________________________________________
The other day at work I saw this girls face go red.
It got me thinking...
when you are injured for example cut
all the blood rushes to that one spot
sending white blood cells that heal.
therefore,
when someone is embarrassed, and their face goes red
is this due to white blood cells rushing to your emotions
and trying to heal?
haha whatever,
How come all my friends are spread out around the world?
I think I want to go to Australia soon to see Phoon.
The ones in Europe will come home soon enough
and I'll go see them.
I think I just need some quality time with certain people.
I have so much to talk about!
Boys- I think I could like another one, school- 5 weeks left, babies, family, friends, everything!
but I'm too lazy now.
Alas, I will post again...soon.