cooooooooookie crisp
havent had those in a while, eating some right now.
so we went grocery shopping in gardner yesterday. gardner has some fiiine men. even though i only saw like..3. it beats here. no fly guys really. just cute ones. sort of. so we were picking out cereal and i picked out some old school cookie crisp, my brother picked raisin bran. dork. also while in gardner we went to blockbuster. i rented finding neverland. i have a feeling ill be spending my quite valuable friday night alone watching finding neverland in my basement. thats depressing. i hate being alone. especially on friday nights. last night i cried. i think i realized that its still really upsetting and i feel so horrible because i need a hug. like..i need someone to hold me, to lean against someone and cry like a baby and someone who'll listen to me and tell me ok and care for me. i hate that i cry alone with no one knowing or caring. i want someone here to hold me, not just tell me over the phone or online that theyre sorry or something. :( it hurts the most that i cant have that someone. and like..dont get me wrong, im not saying that i want a boyfriend or whatever or anything in that way...just a friend..a real one.
so last night i was reading on my bed with the ceiling fan running while tearing and all and was thinking about all this..and for a second i think i made it seem like i have no friends or anyone who cares about me, but then in my perufial vision above my book i saw something move on the wall and looked up. it was the wind from the ceiling fan blowing a corner of a picture that nicole made for me last year. its of a blue blob thing with a smiley face. it made me smile.
im going to go develop like a million pictures of you guys today. yay. so i can flood my room with memories. woo.
i think im going to try to convince my parents to bring me to springfield tomorrow. or sometheing. tell me what youre doing this weekend.
so we went grocery shopping in gardner yesterday. gardner has some fiiine men. even though i only saw like..3. it beats here. no fly guys really. just cute ones. sort of. so we were picking out cereal and i picked out some old school cookie crisp, my brother picked raisin bran. dork. also while in gardner we went to blockbuster. i rented finding neverland. i have a feeling ill be spending my quite valuable friday night alone watching finding neverland in my basement. thats depressing. i hate being alone. especially on friday nights. last night i cried. i think i realized that its still really upsetting and i feel so horrible because i need a hug. like..i need someone to hold me, to lean against someone and cry like a baby and someone who'll listen to me and tell me ok and care for me. i hate that i cry alone with no one knowing or caring. i want someone here to hold me, not just tell me over the phone or online that theyre sorry or something. :( it hurts the most that i cant have that someone. and like..dont get me wrong, im not saying that i want a boyfriend or whatever or anything in that way...just a friend..a real one.
so last night i was reading on my bed with the ceiling fan running while tearing and all and was thinking about all this..and for a second i think i made it seem like i have no friends or anyone who cares about me, but then in my perufial vision above my book i saw something move on the wall and looked up. it was the wind from the ceiling fan blowing a corner of a picture that nicole made for me last year. its of a blue blob thing with a smiley face. it made me smile.
im going to go develop like a million pictures of you guys today. yay. so i can flood my room with memories. woo.
i think im going to try to convince my parents to bring me to springfield tomorrow. or sometheing. tell me what youre doing this weekend.