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you're always there to pick me up
when i'm down and out and left without
the strength and the courage to struggle on
you're always there to show me you care
and i'm so fucking grateful, you mean the world to me
you are the definition of friendship and unity
because i know this friendship
will be one that lasts forever
and you know i will always be there for you
when i saw you, and you told me, i knew you'd always
BE THERE
yeah. for real bitches. never heard that song till like..two days ago on my ipod..it was probably on one of those..various artist mixed compilations i hardly listen to. well yeah...great song. thats the whole thing though. short. oh well. no i didnt cry that time..but when i put it up as an away message yesterday i think i was. psh. yeah whatever. me crying, whats new? oo yay a new song to make me cry just came on...blue and yellow. im not crying right now though, thank jesus [kirsten]. theres this freshman in my spanish class [yeah, wtf...spanish?!] and his spanish class nickname is jesus aka chuy. hes adorable. the other kids in that class are assholes and think its the weirdest thing in the world because he wears eyeliner and nail polish and shit. oh well. theyre jock preppy bitchfucks. for serious. erg for serious, though, we werent even that obnoxious of freshmen. then again...we were like super fly and all the juniors loved us. did anyone else [besides kirsten, we've discussed this] notice the freshmen-junior bond last year? that was crazy awesome. i love juniors. well now theyre seniors..but whatever. but yeah these asshole freshies this year where like 'this kids bent, theres something wrong with his head, wearing nail polish, psh hahah lets jump him after class' wtf?! you loser you really never saw a guy wear nail polish before? youre the fucking one thats bent in the head. so stuck on fucking conformity. we didnt even have that problem in central. wtf. im serious..so many people are just like each other here its soooo weird its like the typical torturous high school you hear about. the popular kids really are the jocks and preps and if you wear black or whatever youre like a fucking alien and you get made fun of. that didnt happen in central. ugh.
i got in trouble this morning because my mom found out i havent been eating. erg. i cant eat. so today i had nacho things and lettuce. this isnt even a self consious anorexic i think i need to loose weight type thing though..i just seriously cant eat. all day i feel like throwing up and its horrible. ugh. i DONT have an eating disorder. this fucking moving thing is ruining my life.