tiredness...
mingseng said i haven't updated in a while.. haha=) oh well.. too bz with schwork and that onslaught of never ending tests and midterms that i din feel like blogging at all...i'm actually feeling rather drained now, it's rather like running on the few ounces of oil left in my engine... left ugly splotches over my notes just now as i attempted to write while in a half drained state. I conclude I simply cannot do jobs that require me to stay beside a photocopier all day long! that experience in the photocopy room was enough to murder me! All that carbon... i bet my lungs turned a bit blacker after I walked out of the library... it's no wonder I haven't stepped into that place for ages, and I felt like a lost year 1 all over again. Head's spinning and mind's not thinking straight now... rar!
all that big hulabaloo about who's going or not going beijing is tiring me out. Decide your own path people! Can't try to persuade you to stay on when u obviously have lost interest and is convinced to think that there's sth else better out there to do... so all i can do is to wish you all the best in ur future journey and it's really too bad to part ways with you right now. Perhaps you might regret this in the future, perhaps you might not. Perhaps I would be the one regretting this instead, thinking of all the what-ifs. But oh heck, it's a chance of a lifetime; an experience that I really wouldn't be able to get anywhere else. Sorry papa mama, I have got to be selfish and use ur money to escape from ur sides for 2 years to pursue the rest of my course... I really can't tell if it's going to help in my future career but I'll take it one step at a time. Just glad I'm still considered rather lucky not to be the one worrying abt finances right now...but really to the one who's deciding not to go because of the mounting debts... I know it's scary to see the amount you owe climb up that scale with each passing day. But money really isn't everything... money can always be earned, but experiences/opportunities will never come back once u've passed by them. Maybe your interest in the course has been waning and maybe this is really a good chance for u to escape... if so, dun use money as a cover... everyone has debts, who doesn't? but what matters is what you do abt it.... whether u are willing to put in that extra effort to earn it all back after graduation. Decide.
ah rants... i'm so not in the right mood now for studying. Exams in 2 weeks and I haven't the slightest idea how to prevent my gpa from dropping any further... sad that my years in uni turned out to be just abt grades... even fyp profs want to see grades... i shld have taken an easier course, now i can't even go for masters/phds... but i will get there somehow.anyhow. keep that faith, i must.
all that big hulabaloo about who's going or not going beijing is tiring me out. Decide your own path people! Can't try to persuade you to stay on when u obviously have lost interest and is convinced to think that there's sth else better out there to do... so all i can do is to wish you all the best in ur future journey and it's really too bad to part ways with you right now. Perhaps you might regret this in the future, perhaps you might not. Perhaps I would be the one regretting this instead, thinking of all the what-ifs. But oh heck, it's a chance of a lifetime; an experience that I really wouldn't be able to get anywhere else. Sorry papa mama, I have got to be selfish and use ur money to escape from ur sides for 2 years to pursue the rest of my course... I really can't tell if it's going to help in my future career but I'll take it one step at a time. Just glad I'm still considered rather lucky not to be the one worrying abt finances right now...but really to the one who's deciding not to go because of the mounting debts... I know it's scary to see the amount you owe climb up that scale with each passing day. But money really isn't everything... money can always be earned, but experiences/opportunities will never come back once u've passed by them. Maybe your interest in the course has been waning and maybe this is really a good chance for u to escape... if so, dun use money as a cover... everyone has debts, who doesn't? but what matters is what you do abt it.... whether u are willing to put in that extra effort to earn it all back after graduation. Decide.
ah rants... i'm so not in the right mood now for studying. Exams in 2 weeks and I haven't the slightest idea how to prevent my gpa from dropping any further... sad that my years in uni turned out to be just abt grades... even fyp profs want to see grades... i shld have taken an easier course, now i can't even go for masters/phds... but i will get there somehow.anyhow. keep that faith, i must.