just an act
Title: just an act
Author: crystallino358
Pairing: ohmiya obviously… (^^)
Rating: safe (again… I don’t know how to do this… =P)
Genre: failed!angst; fluff
Word count: 955 words
Disclaimer: no one’s mine though my heart says otherwise… haha… kidding… XD
A/N: a drabble that getting too long... un-betaed. Forgive me for any grammar mistake. Still searching for beta-reader. Anyone interested?
Summary: he learned he could never live without his ohchan… (suck at summary.. I know.. XP)
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“I’m sorry…” his voice filled with heaviness, as he stared directly to the younger one’s eyes. Nothing could explain what he felt at the moment. He never wanted to hurt him. Loved him too damn much. But he knew he had to do this. Something should be done in order to make things right.
Ohno barely choked by his own voice. He didn’t understand what he had done to deserve this. Seeing the hurt look Nino giving him made him shiver in sorrow. He never wanted to do this, but the past weeks had thought him something; this is what Nino wants. This is what he needs. Nino’s eyes filled with question. What went wrong? What would happen? He refused to see the meaning behinds Ohno’s words.
“I can’t be with you anymore…” his words were final. His heart was determined. He took a deep breath, not halting even once. He kept reassuring himself, this is fine. Everything will be fine.
Nino’s face changed slowly as his words began to sink in. He kept his stare, trying to find the lie within his words. But nothing. He could see it. He knew this was the end. His eyes swelled instantly. He never tried to keep back the tears that keep flowing nonstop that day.
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Another interview was held due to his new drama. Nino was glad his drama became a major success. He still couldn’t believe the rating went high despite the unfavorable time slot. The team was satisfied. The production went smoothly. What could possibly go wrong…, right…?
“Well, Ninomiya-san, apparently your drama is having a success despite it is not aired at prime time slot. How is your feeling about this?”
“I’m very glad to know that people around the country want to take time to watch our drama. This is amazing. I still can’t believe we’ve got high rating so far. We had doubt at first, but we determined to do our best in this project. Everyone in the team is working so hard. I’m glad our effort is getting result.” Nino said sincerely. His face was adorned with thin smile.
“I heard that you have a lot of crying scene in this drama, and the director praised you for your flawless act. Is there any trick to do the scene perfectly?”
Nino smiled sadly at the question. “Off course, I have some secret to it. If I have to cry, I just try to remember the saddest memory in my life. My tears will begin to flow immediately…”
And the memory rushed back to him in an instant…
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Nino jerked off and his body began to shaking violently. He tried to stop the tears that keep flowing uncontrollably down his cheek. He buried his face on his hands. He drew his legs close to his chest as he lay down on the couch, sobbing hard like an abandoned child.
The man before him started to panic seeing the state Nino was in. He never knew he would cause so much to him. Seeing Nino like this made him lost his own breath. He looked around the room to get some help.
“Nino… Nino… don’t cry… please…. Do… don’t cry…,” he frantically reached down to caress Nino’s damp cheek. He pulled Nino to his arms and hugged him securely. Nino buried his face on Ohno’s chest, clinging tightly to his shirt. Ohno soothed his back to calm him down.
“Don’t leave me, Ohchan…. Please…. Don’t ever leave me…. promise me….” he chanted the words repeatedly, hoping to get some reassurance from it.
Ohno smiled and kissed the top of Nino’s head as the cry subsided; gave him more comfort with warm embrace. He felt the younger one snuggled closer to him.
“I won’t…,” he whispered slowly, “I won’t…. “ I’ll stay with you forever….He vowed himself silently.
The whole room was silent in daze, watching the drama before their eyes in amazement. It was a nice morning in Arashi’s green room. Everyone was doing their usual routine while waiting for filming. Sho was reading his high-stacked newspapers, always prepared for Zero. Aiba was sitting beside him, munching cookies happily while reading some idol magazine; disturbing Sho once in awhile. Jun busied admiring his look today and fixing his perfectly-styled hair here-and-there. Riida sat peacefully on the long couch in his usual daze while having Nino’s head on his lap; fingers thread through Nino’s hair absentmindedly. And Nino….
Well…, Nino was reading the script of his new drama, something about a poor young man who always suffer and unlucky before he finally get his happy ending. Stupid script, he thought, because he had to cry lots of times. He hated crying. Ooh…, don’t get it wrong. He was a professional actor after all, a more-than-good one for that matter. But crying was something, if it wasn’t the only thing he struggled to carry out. It always took him more time to do it perfectly, and it often showed emotionless; something that he could never satisfied with.
So, after weeks of thinking, he finally proposed to Ohno; to help him with his acting problem.
And that was when the commotion began and the end of the nice and peaceful morning.
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He flashed the interviewer a dazzling idol smile. He relieved it was just an acting. He never thought how his life would be without Ohno. The thought only could make him down and depressed. He knew he could never be apart from the older man.
Nino felt someone watching on him. He took a side glance to the studio entrance and caught a glimpse of a familiar face. His smile became wide as Ohno made himself more acknowledge. See…? What could possibly go wrong…, right…?
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A/N: hahaha... sorry for the lame ending. It’s 1 am and my brain just stops working. Angst is not my thing, so…, yeah…. I was quite upset earlier because my friend was late for his shift without news, and I had to cover for him for 9 hours (after I had my 24-hours shift yesterday). He was already doing it several time and, really…, is it so hard to sent just one short message…? Because of him, my plan to go home was cancelled. Still stuck here… lonely… huhuhuhu….
Anyway, thanks for reading…. As always…. Comments are loved and critiques are welcomed… by the way..., anyone have time to be my beta-reader…? I’m not posting regularly though, but are willing to improve my writing…. If anyone interested, just contact me… ‘kay…? Thank you… Q(^^)m
Author: crystallino358
Pairing: ohmiya obviously… (^^)
Rating: safe (again… I don’t know how to do this… =P)
Genre: failed!angst; fluff
Word count: 955 words
Disclaimer: no one’s mine though my heart says otherwise… haha… kidding… XD
A/N: a drabble that getting too long... un-betaed. Forgive me for any grammar mistake. Still searching for beta-reader. Anyone interested?
Summary: he learned he could never live without his ohchan… (suck at summary.. I know.. XP)
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
“I’m sorry…” his voice filled with heaviness, as he stared directly to the younger one’s eyes. Nothing could explain what he felt at the moment. He never wanted to hurt him. Loved him too damn much. But he knew he had to do this. Something should be done in order to make things right.
Ohno barely choked by his own voice. He didn’t understand what he had done to deserve this. Seeing the hurt look Nino giving him made him shiver in sorrow. He never wanted to do this, but the past weeks had thought him something; this is what Nino wants. This is what he needs. Nino’s eyes filled with question. What went wrong? What would happen? He refused to see the meaning behinds Ohno’s words.
“I can’t be with you anymore…” his words were final. His heart was determined. He took a deep breath, not halting even once. He kept reassuring himself, this is fine. Everything will be fine.
Nino’s face changed slowly as his words began to sink in. He kept his stare, trying to find the lie within his words. But nothing. He could see it. He knew this was the end. His eyes swelled instantly. He never tried to keep back the tears that keep flowing nonstop that day.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Another interview was held due to his new drama. Nino was glad his drama became a major success. He still couldn’t believe the rating went high despite the unfavorable time slot. The team was satisfied. The production went smoothly. What could possibly go wrong…, right…?
“Well, Ninomiya-san, apparently your drama is having a success despite it is not aired at prime time slot. How is your feeling about this?”
“I’m very glad to know that people around the country want to take time to watch our drama. This is amazing. I still can’t believe we’ve got high rating so far. We had doubt at first, but we determined to do our best in this project. Everyone in the team is working so hard. I’m glad our effort is getting result.” Nino said sincerely. His face was adorned with thin smile.
“I heard that you have a lot of crying scene in this drama, and the director praised you for your flawless act. Is there any trick to do the scene perfectly?”
Nino smiled sadly at the question. “Off course, I have some secret to it. If I have to cry, I just try to remember the saddest memory in my life. My tears will begin to flow immediately…”
And the memory rushed back to him in an instant…
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Nino jerked off and his body began to shaking violently. He tried to stop the tears that keep flowing uncontrollably down his cheek. He buried his face on his hands. He drew his legs close to his chest as he lay down on the couch, sobbing hard like an abandoned child.
The man before him started to panic seeing the state Nino was in. He never knew he would cause so much to him. Seeing Nino like this made him lost his own breath. He looked around the room to get some help.
“Nino… Nino… don’t cry… please…. Do… don’t cry…,” he frantically reached down to caress Nino’s damp cheek. He pulled Nino to his arms and hugged him securely. Nino buried his face on Ohno’s chest, clinging tightly to his shirt. Ohno soothed his back to calm him down.
“Don’t leave me, Ohchan…. Please…. Don’t ever leave me…. promise me….” he chanted the words repeatedly, hoping to get some reassurance from it.
Ohno smiled and kissed the top of Nino’s head as the cry subsided; gave him more comfort with warm embrace. He felt the younger one snuggled closer to him.
“I won’t…,” he whispered slowly, “I won’t…. “ I’ll stay with you forever….He vowed himself silently.
The whole room was silent in daze, watching the drama before their eyes in amazement. It was a nice morning in Arashi’s green room. Everyone was doing their usual routine while waiting for filming. Sho was reading his high-stacked newspapers, always prepared for Zero. Aiba was sitting beside him, munching cookies happily while reading some idol magazine; disturbing Sho once in awhile. Jun busied admiring his look today and fixing his perfectly-styled hair here-and-there. Riida sat peacefully on the long couch in his usual daze while having Nino’s head on his lap; fingers thread through Nino’s hair absentmindedly. And Nino….
Well…, Nino was reading the script of his new drama, something about a poor young man who always suffer and unlucky before he finally get his happy ending. Stupid script, he thought, because he had to cry lots of times. He hated crying. Ooh…, don’t get it wrong. He was a professional actor after all, a more-than-good one for that matter. But crying was something, if it wasn’t the only thing he struggled to carry out. It always took him more time to do it perfectly, and it often showed emotionless; something that he could never satisfied with.
So, after weeks of thinking, he finally proposed to Ohno; to help him with his acting problem.
And that was when the commotion began and the end of the nice and peaceful morning.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
He flashed the interviewer a dazzling idol smile. He relieved it was just an acting. He never thought how his life would be without Ohno. The thought only could make him down and depressed. He knew he could never be apart from the older man.
Nino felt someone watching on him. He took a side glance to the studio entrance and caught a glimpse of a familiar face. His smile became wide as Ohno made himself more acknowledge. See…? What could possibly go wrong…, right…?
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A/N: hahaha... sorry for the lame ending. It’s 1 am and my brain just stops working. Angst is not my thing, so…, yeah…. I was quite upset earlier because my friend was late for his shift without news, and I had to cover for him for 9 hours (after I had my 24-hours shift yesterday). He was already doing it several time and, really…, is it so hard to sent just one short message…? Because of him, my plan to go home was cancelled. Still stuck here… lonely… huhuhuhu….
Anyway, thanks for reading…. As always…. Comments are loved and critiques are welcomed… by the way..., anyone have time to be my beta-reader…? I’m not posting regularly though, but are willing to improve my writing…. If anyone interested, just contact me… ‘kay…? Thank you… Q(^^)m