Is it bedtime yet
The week is coming to an end and I am sad. I wonder if clayton will staff me next week. I will be glad to make the money but sad to leave home. I love being home with Matt.
Tomorrow is the big interview. I am excited, nervous, depressed, and every other emotion rolled into one. I really would like to get a local job. I want to be at home with Matt everyday and not feel like I am missing out with wedding stuff and missing out with things in my friends lives because I am working in California or something. I am nervous about tomorrow because I know that Matt will be disappointed if I dont land this job. I feel a lot of pressure (not from him) to get this position. And I am depressed about my huge salary decrease. Matt keeps telling me that it doesnt matter how much I a make that I am still sucessful. But in my mind I feel like I will be taking 5 steps back professionally if I take this job. But the weird thing is I feel like I would be really good at it and I want to get it. So its like a big melting pot of feelings. But whats meant to be will be right.
I pretty much have decided on a wedding dress. I found one that I really liked in Dearborn with Heather last week. Wednesday I tried on a similar one with the only difference being the back. The second one zipped up and the first one was a corset. Well today while matt and I were driving home from getting diet coke slurpees he made this comment about me getting a corset dress and looking like a domentrix and saying how hot that would be. He has no clue that the dress I actually like is a corset so that basically sealed the deal. I wonder what made him think that. So now I just have to decide whether or not I want to order it in dearborn or try to find a salon on this side of the tracks that sells it.
I cant wait for Saturday. Darcy and I are finally getting our haircut. I am still trying to grow it out so I can wear it up for the wedding. Well I think I am going to pick out my outfit for tomorrow and hit the sack. Hopefully Matt gets here before I fall asleep.
Here is the dress
http://wwww.davincibridal.com/catalog.php?cat=22&im_id=31&page=28
Its the 2nd row first one on the dress. If I was smart enough I would post one with me in it. If you want to see ask me and I will email it to you