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today has simply been.. well awful.
it's not like something horrible has
happened or anything. I am just in a
horrible mood. Earlier today I was so
excited to get to hang out with karen.
but then when we got to the mall, it
just didnt turn out as great as i thought
i dont even know what happend. i just want
to cry. I dont know what to do. everything
upsets me, i'm just depressed. and i dont
know what to do. i dont know how to explain
how i feel. im wondering if it has anything
to do with last nights events. just talking.
i wonder if just talking to him is enough
to upset me. i hope this isnt true, since
he is amazing. but i just don't know. I
know that people care, but i'm sick of feeling
like they don't. And i want to change.
i hate myself for treating him like i have.
i'm sorry. i am so sorry. you are seriously
one of my best friends. and i am sorry.
i dont know why i do what i do. but i hate
myself for it. i'm sorry. i love you.
it's not like something horrible has
happened or anything. I am just in a
horrible mood. Earlier today I was so
excited to get to hang out with karen.
but then when we got to the mall, it
just didnt turn out as great as i thought
i dont even know what happend. i just want
to cry. I dont know what to do. everything
upsets me, i'm just depressed. and i dont
know what to do. i dont know how to explain
how i feel. im wondering if it has anything
to do with last nights events. just talking.
i wonder if just talking to him is enough
to upset me. i hope this isnt true, since
he is amazing. but i just don't know. I
know that people care, but i'm sick of feeling
like they don't. And i want to change.
i hate myself for treating him like i have.
i'm sorry. i am so sorry. you are seriously
one of my best friends. and i am sorry.
i dont know why i do what i do. but i hate
myself for it. i'm sorry. i love you.