Broken Spirit
Well... I knew it would happen eventually but it finally happened tonight. Apollo decided to try to jump the fence between my house and my neighbor around the corner. He got over but he was on tether and probably hung himself for a moment, until the fence panels snapped. I heard the fence breaking and he cried out in pain. No one is home at the neighbors house. I went over there and rang the bell. House is dark and no one answered. They have fences and an alarm system. I wasnt about to try to break in.
Hubby had to pull more fence panels off and we had to drag him back through. Apollo resisted as much as he could but I had to drag him by the neck. He is scared and has blood in his mouth so I presume he bit his own tongue. I cant keep doing this to him and I cant watch him every minute of every day and night. I believe that he needs to run free and there is nothing that I can do about it.
Last night, he and I had a beautiful moment together. He sat with me and I pet him and consoled him and gave him healing. He slept by me for a while. And he slept most of the day but tonight, he thought it in his best interest to climb over a fence. It could easily have been the death of him if the fence was any stronger.
I am heart sick about this but I can see that he needs to run free. He needs to be on a preserve with other wolves and I need to make this happen for him as soon as humanly possible. I don't want to give him up. I don't want to send him away. I just want him to be happy. And I need to know that he is in a safe place where he wont hurt himself again or cause more destruction that we cant afford to fix. Please send prayers for him and for me. I dont know what else to do but this.... this is miserable.