shut down
i've shut down again...emotions failing me...just a shell, a shell that sleeps too much and doesn't move from the couch...i think i know why this time, but you have to keep it a secret...see i tried to break up with my boyfriend for the fourth time now, and for the fourth time he threatened to kill himself and for the fourth time i crumbled and went back with him... so now to keep out the hurt and desperation and the feelings of being trapped, i go numb, and shut down....why do i let my life get so fucked up?