May 17, 2004 00:12
Sometimes I feel like I'm getting more mature, but who knows. I can always use some maturity if anyone has some to spare. I'm thinking of getting a live-in nanny job, this would enable me to move out and have a job while still being a full-time mother. Sometimes I think I would be better off somewhere else, it's like I have to be drowning before I will swim. If I leave my comfort zone I would be forced to become responsible. Not to mention the huge mental benefits that come with being away from my mother.
Most of my life I knew what I wanted and how to get it. Now I don't know. I hate it.