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[crystaldome]

I've had to read 12 chpters well they're suppose to be done for this week...but I'm not done i still have half more to go...I'm sooo scared i'm stressing out....don't get me wrong i love the program but i miss not having homework and just working day to day enjoying life and being allowed the freedom to party ...but now I think I may have to quit guess because i'm losing money i know with the comute downtown and i could get more hours , paid more if i were to just stick with peer support and hell i can even do my homework there...but they want my 2 full days off from school. I gave them monday so i can have more flexibility in going to the gym...speaking of things are looking good if i don't say so myself:) hehe so i'm happy there but so frustrating cause its hard work and i have to go to the gym atleast 3 days/wk to see improvement...plus i have soccer 2/wk. Soon I'll be mentoring a 17yr old girl for 3hrs/wk. and theres so much fucking reading to do in my courses i don't know what i should do with working downtown at guess....do i quit, stick it out see how it goes, or keep it for reasons of sanity. Like i mean I have no time for fun....haha i think the only time i will have to do fun things is through my volunteering. FUCK!!!!!!!!like welcome to living like a hermit kalyn....this fucking blows! I've never liked reading nor been good at it and i got so much to read ...fucking christ and did i mention i already have a midterm coming up lol Tues. Jan.23 just why not hand me the pistol so i can put myself out of my misery.

I swear the first chance i get i'm gonna get so fucking drunk that I won't be able to tell left from right and i will live life in a crazy stooper. haha I miss partying on those wild nights haha good times...come back! lol
*sighs*

ok ...well off i go to attempt completing my homework.