Dear God, please kill me
Ya know that point in your life when you don't want to die but you don't want to live anymore either? Yeah, I'm there. Please someone save me.
I want him so bad, why is he so far away? He got accepted at UNCW . . . I'm happy for him, really, but . . . we've never been that far apart before. & he doesn't want to be with me because we're going to have to go our separate ways. I'm trying to accept that, but how can I when I would do anything just to be w/ him? I love him so much . . .
& to all my friends . . . who & where are you? I've felt so alone these past few days, & no one's there. Thank you, Manda, for all that you've done for me lately. I love you. As for everyone else, I miss you guys. I miss hanging out w/ you, & being a part of your lives. I know I'm not exactly on the outside, but I've really felt like it lately. I'm sorry if this sounds whiny, but it's MY journal, so I feel justified.
I'm gone. If anyone wishes to contact me, I'll be in my own little world. Hugs will be accepted.