Que Sera Sera-Whatever will be, will be
I watched a movie that had that song in it tonight, i can't sleep, and i have the song stuck in my head now... i wanted to use it as my diary title, didn't know how to spell it, so tried to look up doris day cause i knew she sang it in a movie, and i found out that doris day sang a lot of songs in her movies, haha, i finally found it though. now i don't have to look stupid trying desperately but not successfully to spell it. i hardly write on this thing, but i can't fucking sleep and im bored. i drank 2 and a half cups of coffee at work and have been wired ever since. i came home from 7 hours of work and cleaned my whole goddamn room. then went through all of my papers i stuffed in my filing cabinet because i still couldn't sleep after the movie. haha i really have nothing to talk about. but im bored... and trying to think of something to talk about. i've been trying all night to do things that make me tired, watch a movie, go through papers, get online (and read about other peoples lives), and nothing works. i gotta go to work tomorrow, but its okay, i'll just drink more coffee when i wake up. i haven't drank coffee in so long, i think tahts why i got so energized. oh and fuck everybody that got to go see leftover crack. no not really, i hope everyone enjoyed it. i just didn't have a car to drive because mine doesn't like me anymore and no one to go with, so this is me being angry. whatever though. i can still listen to the cd i made myself. uhhh... pineapple is good... i like to eat it at work. well i like to eat everything at work, because i eat it for free. and thats what i do at work, eat a lot, and smoke a lot. my work sucks. but i think everyone thinks that way. i want to do something i like though, just probably won't happen. i really wish i would have stayed with my whole "drink and become a bum and die" thing... not so smart, but much more easy, for me, im lazy. i think you gotta go to school or something to actually get a good job. and then theres the fact that i've always hated the idea of working to die, but what else is there to do in life? okay... im starting to sound like an idiot, ya know, those people who think they know what they're talking about, but really sound like a dumbass to everyone. i like to care about what other people think. so im going to go stare at a wall or something, try to sleep again.