Soon, it will be over
Reality is hitting me hard: I am graduating soon. I'm having finals this week. Some subjects such as Philo and LS are over and done with, and I am going to miss my profs.
My life as a student will officially be over in a matter of days.
In a matter of days.
And I still don't know what to do with my life!
There are so many possibilities out there that it's just so hard to choose. I'm also inundated with questions. This company or that company? Work or study abroad? This scholarship opportunity or that? What industry/field to enter? When to start work? Will I survive the corporate world or, even broader than that, the real world? How drastic a case of culture shock will I experience? What will people say? Will I be happy and successful?
I feel pressure (possibly real, possibly imagined) everywhere: from society, from family, and even from some of my friends. (Thankfully, my really good friends aren't pressuring me, while at the same time, they naturally wouldn't want me to be a degenerate.)
I really don't want to graduate yet. I enjoy being a student; I really do. At least, even if there are times that I'm so stressed out that I just want to curl up and forget about the world, it's not forever. There are summer, Christmas and semestral breaks for me to recharge. There are always fallback solutions when I screw up. School isn't all there is to my days.
I don't think that that will be the case when I start working.
In a few days, I will be free, as many people say. They speak of the end of college as if it is a good thing. I, on the other hand, am not looking forward to any of it. Sure, the fact that we won't have to do anything for about a month sounds good, but - I don't know - that period of time just seems like one last hurrah for me.
My life as a student will officially be over in a matter of days.
In a matter of days.
And I still don't know what to do with my life!
There are so many possibilities out there that it's just so hard to choose. I'm also inundated with questions. This company or that company? Work or study abroad? This scholarship opportunity or that? What industry/field to enter? When to start work? Will I survive the corporate world or, even broader than that, the real world? How drastic a case of culture shock will I experience? What will people say? Will I be happy and successful?
I feel pressure (possibly real, possibly imagined) everywhere: from society, from family, and even from some of my friends. (Thankfully, my really good friends aren't pressuring me, while at the same time, they naturally wouldn't want me to be a degenerate.)
I really don't want to graduate yet. I enjoy being a student; I really do. At least, even if there are times that I'm so stressed out that I just want to curl up and forget about the world, it's not forever. There are summer, Christmas and semestral breaks for me to recharge. There are always fallback solutions when I screw up. School isn't all there is to my days.
I don't think that that will be the case when I start working.
In a few days, I will be free, as many people say. They speak of the end of college as if it is a good thing. I, on the other hand, am not looking forward to any of it. Sure, the fact that we won't have to do anything for about a month sounds good, but - I don't know - that period of time just seems like one last hurrah for me.