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Soo... for those of you who didn't guess, I have a horrible problem with obsession. When I get into something I get completely and totally into it, to the point where I can discuss and think about nothing else. I spend all my free time on it, it's all I can discuss, it's all I want to do... it's really frustrating and it's down right terrible to the people I surround myself with. It's the reason I lose all my friends.
So I guess the question is... how do I go about fixing this? I don't want to cut myself off from fandom. Fandom is just one of those things that makes me who I am. I get excited about stuff, I daydream, I role-play, I write and I draw... it makes me happy. But I don't want to lose anymore friends or hurt Stephen... they matter a lot more such things.
I guess the issue is learning to balance. For now I guess it's probably good that I'm not role-playing, when I RP I get far too wrapped up in it for my own good. But I've met a friend in college who'd like to start something... right now I'm at a decent level fangirling-wise, but I'm toeing the line already and that's bad...
I just don't know what to do. I don't want to cut myself off... but I guess the question is how do I keep myself from going too far? Is it even possible for me to do stuff like RP without going too far? I don't want to get to the point where I'm mentally preferring such things over my boyfriend... *sigh*
I have to get it right. For now the current plan is to give myself a set amount of time to go all "OMG YAY!" over the stuff I'm interested in and leave the rest of the time for homework, daily stuff that needs to get done and projects I already need to do (i.e. CP, various CGs and commissions...). Even so, that's not going to stop me from daydreaming... is daydreaming even going too far? Augh...
I like daydreaming. I like imagining things and creating things and everything else. But I don't want to take it too far... what do I do? Without having something to channel my creativity into (i.e. fandom) I feel kind of empty... but if I don't have Stephen as well, well, then I'm also empty. Hn...
How do I get it right?
--Crystal-chan
So I guess the question is... how do I go about fixing this? I don't want to cut myself off from fandom. Fandom is just one of those things that makes me who I am. I get excited about stuff, I daydream, I role-play, I write and I draw... it makes me happy. But I don't want to lose anymore friends or hurt Stephen... they matter a lot more such things.
I guess the issue is learning to balance. For now I guess it's probably good that I'm not role-playing, when I RP I get far too wrapped up in it for my own good. But I've met a friend in college who'd like to start something... right now I'm at a decent level fangirling-wise, but I'm toeing the line already and that's bad...
I just don't know what to do. I don't want to cut myself off... but I guess the question is how do I keep myself from going too far? Is it even possible for me to do stuff like RP without going too far? I don't want to get to the point where I'm mentally preferring such things over my boyfriend... *sigh*
I have to get it right. For now the current plan is to give myself a set amount of time to go all "OMG YAY!" over the stuff I'm interested in and leave the rest of the time for homework, daily stuff that needs to get done and projects I already need to do (i.e. CP, various CGs and commissions...). Even so, that's not going to stop me from daydreaming... is daydreaming even going too far? Augh...
I like daydreaming. I like imagining things and creating things and everything else. But I don't want to take it too far... what do I do? Without having something to channel my creativity into (i.e. fandom) I feel kind of empty... but if I don't have Stephen as well, well, then I'm also empty. Hn...
How do I get it right?
--Crystal-chan