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i was all excited to run outside today then it started to rain. hard core.
so i did pushups and sit ups instead.
well its sunday and guessss who is alone in her room again....
did you say me?
oh, oh, if you did, then you are correct.
i really dont fit in and it really sucks.
ALL the time, i can hear other people in my hall talking. and laughing. but when i walk by their rooms, even just to say hi on my way to the bathroom, they just stop and stare at me.
everyone always hangs out downstairs... but i really get the feeling they dont want me there.
and i know i shouldnt care about stupid stuff like this, and the fact that i have yet to get a message on the whiteboard this YEAR (semester), but i do.
and it makes me feel bad.
AND i have no one to talk to!!!!!! because everyone else is having fun being a group.
in a way, though, i guess this is better. i have more time to get homework done, which woohoo, i have a lot of. i only have one more subject left for today though so here i go... off being a good college student.
a shockingly unhappy and lonely one...
but hey. i dont exist. im invisable... its all good.
so i did pushups and sit ups instead.
well its sunday and guessss who is alone in her room again....
did you say me?
oh, oh, if you did, then you are correct.
i really dont fit in and it really sucks.
ALL the time, i can hear other people in my hall talking. and laughing. but when i walk by their rooms, even just to say hi on my way to the bathroom, they just stop and stare at me.
everyone always hangs out downstairs... but i really get the feeling they dont want me there.
and i know i shouldnt care about stupid stuff like this, and the fact that i have yet to get a message on the whiteboard this YEAR (semester), but i do.
and it makes me feel bad.
AND i have no one to talk to!!!!!! because everyone else is having fun being a group.
in a way, though, i guess this is better. i have more time to get homework done, which woohoo, i have a lot of. i only have one more subject left for today though so here i go... off being a good college student.
a shockingly unhappy and lonely one...
but hey. i dont exist. im invisable... its all good.