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So strange... I didn't really realize how jaded I was huh? It's all been a gradual process for me but I guess people who haven't seen me for awhile notice it more. Definitely more held back but I think I'm still that bubbly person inside. It's just that all these things I thought used to matter, just don't hold that much significance anymore.
what does it mean when it takes less effort to hate someone than to forgive them? hate is such a strong word it's scary. but then again... detest and great animosity does sound like a pretty accurate portrayal. I still have that stinging feeling whenever I see his picture. Not so much when I describe what happened... as long as I talk about the facts and not so much my emotions. it's been such a long time and how come I still haven't healed? I never will forget what he put me through, all the things he did to hurt me, and just how he was a horrible horrible person. I don't want to have anything to do with him and don't want to be associated with him. whenever I talk about him, nothing positive comes from my mouth. leading me on, making empty promises and strong hurtful accusations. the guy's out of his mind! okey. I should do something to let all this rest huh?
I still can't decide if I want a cat or a dog. i keep changing my mind. I feel like this isn't exactly a good time to get one either. *sigh. I just want a cute little something I can cuddle with and love. Something to look forward to seeing when I get home :)
when I start work... I need to do that thing where I live as cheaply as possible and save up as much money as possible. i should figure out how to get a side job and make some extra money... *sigh. this sucks. ideas... i need ideas. i used to be so creative... what happened?
what does it mean when it takes less effort to hate someone than to forgive them? hate is such a strong word it's scary. but then again... detest and great animosity does sound like a pretty accurate portrayal. I still have that stinging feeling whenever I see his picture. Not so much when I describe what happened... as long as I talk about the facts and not so much my emotions. it's been such a long time and how come I still haven't healed? I never will forget what he put me through, all the things he did to hurt me, and just how he was a horrible horrible person. I don't want to have anything to do with him and don't want to be associated with him. whenever I talk about him, nothing positive comes from my mouth. leading me on, making empty promises and strong hurtful accusations. the guy's out of his mind! okey. I should do something to let all this rest huh?
I still can't decide if I want a cat or a dog. i keep changing my mind. I feel like this isn't exactly a good time to get one either. *sigh. I just want a cute little something I can cuddle with and love. Something to look forward to seeing when I get home :)
when I start work... I need to do that thing where I live as cheaply as possible and save up as much money as possible. i should figure out how to get a side job and make some extra money... *sigh. this sucks. ideas... i need ideas. i used to be so creative... what happened?