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I need to stop thinking about the future; I don't know how much more my nails can take... they're back to being ridiculously short as it is!
It's funny, we're both pretending that we're making the logical decision, allowing the other person to live their own life, go wherever they want and be uninhibiting... but I think the truth is that neither of us is willing to make any real sacrifices to keep the other. Sure, we'll make weekend plans, but the idea of anything much bigger than that is scary. I'm pretty sure anything resembling definite future plans wouldn't even be promised in order to help with easing any fear that would come with making any life changing decisions for the other person. I know I'd be scared to promise anything, or accept any promises for that matter.
I'm pretty sure that's not what love's all about... at least, that's what the movies seem to say. Throwing caution to the wind, blah, blah, blah.
I'll keep ignoring that though. It's just so much easier when I can maintain the status quo. Plus it was just so difficult to focus on anything else when I went with my logic last time... oh wait, sorry, I'm supposed to say it was due to "feminine problems"
It's like I'm cheating on someone that I don't even know yet just by continuing this thing that I know won't last, but it's something that I'm not ready to end, and don't see myself being ready to end for quite a while.
It's funny, we're both pretending that we're making the logical decision, allowing the other person to live their own life, go wherever they want and be uninhibiting... but I think the truth is that neither of us is willing to make any real sacrifices to keep the other. Sure, we'll make weekend plans, but the idea of anything much bigger than that is scary. I'm pretty sure anything resembling definite future plans wouldn't even be promised in order to help with easing any fear that would come with making any life changing decisions for the other person. I know I'd be scared to promise anything, or accept any promises for that matter.
I'm pretty sure that's not what love's all about... at least, that's what the movies seem to say. Throwing caution to the wind, blah, blah, blah.
I'll keep ignoring that though. It's just so much easier when I can maintain the status quo. Plus it was just so difficult to focus on anything else when I went with my logic last time... oh wait, sorry, I'm supposed to say it was due to "feminine problems"
It's like I'm cheating on someone that I don't even know yet just by continuing this thing that I know won't last, but it's something that I'm not ready to end, and don't see myself being ready to end for quite a while.