My perspective on life...
Sigur ross get some of there music its awsome to chill to.
everybody has been needing to chill lately. finding out who their friends really are. Expiramenting with things. i have been going through this also. and its tough on life. ppl will prolly give me shit for this info but i really just dont care. i cant see my true friends except for the few that stand by me. and it saddens me of those people that i stuck with through the years and now they are gone, the people that we hung out with just to be friends. and that kind f person who you could just be yourself around and have no worries. all that is gone for me. gone and im looking for it no matter how hard it is to find i wont give up.and i really cant say thanks to anyone. but thats just life i guess. everyone has pain and sarrow and hard times in life. I though the begginging of school was gonna be kickass and i am just through day 8 and it seems like a whole new world. friends, people, reality has changed in my eyes, and people giving shit about other being posers just drop it let them live how they want too they dont bash on you. if its chik pants, smoking, drugs , skating, music whatever its their life. I feel that i have lost more than i have gaind over the summer. i havent kept in contact, i havent been to their parties i havent seen their face or heard their voice they eyes. i belive we are just hiding from the truth and i dont know what the truth is. and i dont think i will ever find out what that is.people set goals and stuff like lose weight and do good in school and lift weights. im gonna set a goal to get my friends back. to get that someone. to live my life how i want it without any stimulants or stuff like that. To gain all my memories and turn them back into reality. No one needs to tell you what to do. I know its just highschool and that there is a whole new world outside it but why go outside it without your friends, without knowing who is behind you and if they are true. i dont know the meaning of true becuase its mistranslated through the people that use it. I know im only 15 and i have the rest of time to do all the things i want but i want to know who i have now and where it will be in 1yr, 5yrs, and so and and so forth.Happiness is just a word. its indescriable in feeling. you cant have it you have to earn it.Im not sure i have earnd it yet in my life. I might seem joyfull in school or around people, but thats just a stage its just a smile and laughter. happiness is in the heart and i dont feel it. I might act strange or be the wild one but everyone has feelings.Everyone has a soal.I know people are gonn say whoa you caught me off guard with this one and the common answer is im tired of keeping it inside. it hasnt been inside me its my atmosphere and people havent relized it because its invisible to them.
Ill probably get bashed in the journal comments but o well thats just another stage for a person.
or noone will read this its all good i just needed to say it.
everybody has been needing to chill lately. finding out who their friends really are. Expiramenting with things. i have been going through this also. and its tough on life. ppl will prolly give me shit for this info but i really just dont care. i cant see my true friends except for the few that stand by me. and it saddens me of those people that i stuck with through the years and now they are gone, the people that we hung out with just to be friends. and that kind f person who you could just be yourself around and have no worries. all that is gone for me. gone and im looking for it no matter how hard it is to find i wont give up.and i really cant say thanks to anyone. but thats just life i guess. everyone has pain and sarrow and hard times in life. I though the begginging of school was gonna be kickass and i am just through day 8 and it seems like a whole new world. friends, people, reality has changed in my eyes, and people giving shit about other being posers just drop it let them live how they want too they dont bash on you. if its chik pants, smoking, drugs , skating, music whatever its their life. I feel that i have lost more than i have gaind over the summer. i havent kept in contact, i havent been to their parties i havent seen their face or heard their voice they eyes. i belive we are just hiding from the truth and i dont know what the truth is. and i dont think i will ever find out what that is.people set goals and stuff like lose weight and do good in school and lift weights. im gonna set a goal to get my friends back. to get that someone. to live my life how i want it without any stimulants or stuff like that. To gain all my memories and turn them back into reality. No one needs to tell you what to do. I know its just highschool and that there is a whole new world outside it but why go outside it without your friends, without knowing who is behind you and if they are true. i dont know the meaning of true becuase its mistranslated through the people that use it. I know im only 15 and i have the rest of time to do all the things i want but i want to know who i have now and where it will be in 1yr, 5yrs, and so and and so forth.Happiness is just a word. its indescriable in feeling. you cant have it you have to earn it.Im not sure i have earnd it yet in my life. I might seem joyfull in school or around people, but thats just a stage its just a smile and laughter. happiness is in the heart and i dont feel it. I might act strange or be the wild one but everyone has feelings.Everyone has a soal.I know people are gonn say whoa you caught me off guard with this one and the common answer is im tired of keeping it inside. it hasnt been inside me its my atmosphere and people havent relized it because its invisible to them.
Ill probably get bashed in the journal comments but o well thats just another stage for a person.
or noone will read this its all good i just needed to say it.