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Lately I feel like Sid pre-Nancy. I need to meet my Nancy before the Empty settles in. I need her to make me feel again.
Days without talking is starting to feel normal. And when we do talk it feels empty and formal. I find myself wishing for an all-out screaming match, a knock-down-drag-out fight. I want to scream and yell and hit him. I want him to scream and yell and hit me back. But there's nothing to fight about, there's no reason to scream and hit. And I don't know why, but sometimes that makes me want to cry.
Days without talking is starting to feel normal. And when we do talk it feels empty and formal. I find myself wishing for an all-out screaming match, a knock-down-drag-out fight. I want to scream and yell and hit him. I want him to scream and yell and hit me back. But there's nothing to fight about, there's no reason to scream and hit. And I don't know why, but sometimes that makes me want to cry.