Schemes and Things
Have you ever just been so disappointed by people you respect that it sort of breaks your heart? The people I work for/with have known that I've been slogging my way through school part time for the past five years, and that it would lead to me wanting bigger, better things for myself (like a career step up). First there was the rumor that we would work out something for me at my current job, and I was so happy. On top of the world. Well, didn't pan out. That's okay, but now the silent "get Crystal out of her job" campaign has begun. It's subversive, and it makes me miserable every day. Seriously, I hate getting up in the mornings now...well, more so than usual (not a day person by nature). But it's not even that they couldn't create a better position for me here. I understood that was the way it might pan out. It's just...I like these people. I respect them. I've worked with them for seven whole years, which may not seem like a lot to some people, but it's a frickin' lifetime in the scheme of my work experience. They're not happy for me, and I just don't understand how that can be. I would be thrilled for someone I'd known this long that they've accomplished something that was important to them. School is that thing for me, and they treat me like a leper now. I may reserve the right now to say that I was being melodramatic later, but right now, OMG this sucks!