Extreme Exhaustion
It has been one hell of a week and it isn't even Friday yet. I have a massive headache so I'll just highlight the key points.
* Had a 3 day weekend but couldn't get any of my grades doen because the server was down, was supposed to turn them in on Tuesday.......and since that didn't happen, I had people breathing down my neck for the rest of the week
*Tuesday - Half of the Special Ed department was out sick. Since I was there, I was asked to help cover the other classes, in addition to trying to get some grades done, cover my own class, and prepare and run a meeting with a contentious parent who has a history of suing schools - needless to say my stress level was through the roof
*Tuesday afterschool - Had to go to the eye doctor for my annual check up - found out that I have Drusen's spots in one eye which are what causes Macular Degeneration (i.e. loss of central vision or something like that). So now I have to go in for more tests and screenings in order to determine what needs to be done so that I can keep my vision for as long as possible. I am nervous and having a hard time dealing with that, because I'm only 24, I shouldn't be having that kind of problem yet. To me that scariest thing that could ever happen would be losing my sight, luckily its only in the one eye so far so lets hope it stays that way.
Oh Yeah, and since they dilated my eyes in the appointment, I couldn't use a computer until they pupils returned to normal, which wasn't until about 11 pm, so I stay up til midnight to get in a couple kids grades. To stressed to sleep, so toss and turn most of night.
*Wednesday - Found out that there was more drama involving the aides who were supposed to be with my kids not going where they were suppposed to, so I need to get taht all straightened out with the head of my department. I covered a meeting for a teacher who was still out sick. Then I stay at school until 6:45 pm doing grades, go home eat dinner, and stay up to 1am doing more grades. By that time I am so strung out, I can't sleep, so I read to calm myself down and end up falling asleep by about 2:00-2:30am.
*Thursday - Wake up with massive headache, bordering on migraine. Go to school spend the day teaching, battling to keep my eyes open, fighting the subwoofers in my skull, and oh yeah doing grades until about 5:30 pm. Half of the department is still out sick, so I help where I can.
*I also found out that the tutoring program I was so excited about, I may not even get to help with because they are giving preference to general education teachers. As far as I know, not many of them want to do it, so I let the people in charge know that I was still interested. Still wiating to here if they decide I can participate or not.
All in all, I have been very stressed, operating on little sleep, and trying to help out two classes in addition to my own. I am also worried and stressing about my eyesight and it is always weighing at the back of my mind. I am trying to relax and give it all to God, but I feel like I am drowning. At least tomorrow is Friday, so I only have to muddle through one more day, then it is the weekend. I hope that all of you have had better weeks. I appoloize for the misery I have written, I just needed the release of getting it all out there. Love you all!!
God Bless
* Had a 3 day weekend but couldn't get any of my grades doen because the server was down, was supposed to turn them in on Tuesday.......and since that didn't happen, I had people breathing down my neck for the rest of the week
*Tuesday - Half of the Special Ed department was out sick. Since I was there, I was asked to help cover the other classes, in addition to trying to get some grades done, cover my own class, and prepare and run a meeting with a contentious parent who has a history of suing schools - needless to say my stress level was through the roof
*Tuesday afterschool - Had to go to the eye doctor for my annual check up - found out that I have Drusen's spots in one eye which are what causes Macular Degeneration (i.e. loss of central vision or something like that). So now I have to go in for more tests and screenings in order to determine what needs to be done so that I can keep my vision for as long as possible. I am nervous and having a hard time dealing with that, because I'm only 24, I shouldn't be having that kind of problem yet. To me that scariest thing that could ever happen would be losing my sight, luckily its only in the one eye so far so lets hope it stays that way.
Oh Yeah, and since they dilated my eyes in the appointment, I couldn't use a computer until they pupils returned to normal, which wasn't until about 11 pm, so I stay up til midnight to get in a couple kids grades. To stressed to sleep, so toss and turn most of night.
*Wednesday - Found out that there was more drama involving the aides who were supposed to be with my kids not going where they were suppposed to, so I need to get taht all straightened out with the head of my department. I covered a meeting for a teacher who was still out sick. Then I stay at school until 6:45 pm doing grades, go home eat dinner, and stay up to 1am doing more grades. By that time I am so strung out, I can't sleep, so I read to calm myself down and end up falling asleep by about 2:00-2:30am.
*Thursday - Wake up with massive headache, bordering on migraine. Go to school spend the day teaching, battling to keep my eyes open, fighting the subwoofers in my skull, and oh yeah doing grades until about 5:30 pm. Half of the department is still out sick, so I help where I can.
*I also found out that the tutoring program I was so excited about, I may not even get to help with because they are giving preference to general education teachers. As far as I know, not many of them want to do it, so I let the people in charge know that I was still interested. Still wiating to here if they decide I can participate or not.
All in all, I have been very stressed, operating on little sleep, and trying to help out two classes in addition to my own. I am also worried and stressing about my eyesight and it is always weighing at the back of my mind. I am trying to relax and give it all to God, but I feel like I am drowning. At least tomorrow is Friday, so I only have to muddle through one more day, then it is the weekend. I hope that all of you have had better weeks. I appoloize for the misery I have written, I just needed the release of getting it all out there. Love you all!!
God Bless