i posted this on depression too.. god i hate life
7:50 pm
I just was talking to my mom and she after poking and proding a little / or remembering on her part that they were just going to leave me home alone while they go on vacation sometime in june/ july and visit my grandparents.. of course i don't really care for visiting my grand parents... but i will be home alone.. no contacts.... no friends.. nothing.. and she just decided to tell me this.. i wasn't apart of any desicion making.. they just ignore me.. i am the away college student.. we don't need to worry about her.. it doesn't matter she'll be fine alone... (hello you just moved-- i don't even know how to get onto the highway! and we live 20 minutes from the closest target)...i hate my family... actually it hurts me that they don't care about me.. and i care about them... why don't they care about me??? i mean am i actually loved? or is it just an obligation for them.... i think i am just an object in there eyes, just a trophy they can show off and then just tuck back away into the closet... i hate my life.... WHAT IS THE FREAKING POINT... i wish i were dead...
i don't like saddness...oh and my mom did start to lay on the guilt trip about my stupid scholarship... WHY do i get so many??? really i should just runaway and flip burgers.....
I just was talking to my mom and she after poking and proding a little / or remembering on her part that they were just going to leave me home alone while they go on vacation sometime in june/ july and visit my grandparents.. of course i don't really care for visiting my grand parents... but i will be home alone.. no contacts.... no friends.. nothing.. and she just decided to tell me this.. i wasn't apart of any desicion making.. they just ignore me.. i am the away college student.. we don't need to worry about her.. it doesn't matter she'll be fine alone... (hello you just moved-- i don't even know how to get onto the highway! and we live 20 minutes from the closest target)...i hate my family... actually it hurts me that they don't care about me.. and i care about them... why don't they care about me??? i mean am i actually loved? or is it just an obligation for them.... i think i am just an object in there eyes, just a trophy they can show off and then just tuck back away into the closet... i hate my life.... WHAT IS THE FREAKING POINT... i wish i were dead...
i don't like saddness...oh and my mom did start to lay on the guilt trip about my stupid scholarship... WHY do i get so many??? really i should just runaway and flip burgers.....