maybe i am over anyalizing?
ok i am confusing myself.. becuase its not "normal" to have constant thoughts about suicide and death... And how do i know if i am fine? i know it is bad to have these thoughts... so i mean why can't i make them stop...am i just trying to get attention???? i am so confused.....i mean i don't really have anyfeelings at all... so that's not depression?? grr...
didn't sleep again last night..---but at least it was becuase i didn't want to sleep...--study study...damn i could have avoided this if i had gotten this done over the weekend but of course i had to be a big baby and premadonna and sleep the whole weekend--and not want to go outside or do anything...
grr.... why do i keep doing this...... I just want it to go away...
didn't sleep again last night..---but at least it was becuase i didn't want to sleep...--study study...damn i could have avoided this if i had gotten this done over the weekend but of course i had to be a big baby and premadonna and sleep the whole weekend--and not want to go outside or do anything...
grr.... why do i keep doing this...... I just want it to go away...