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I had a long conversation with my mother last night about my life. She came up to me and asked me.. "reyna, whats wrong, I havent seen you smile at all today" and I said "I dont know.. honestly.." and she sat down and.. I told her how much its been killing me inside that no one talks to anyone anymore.. between our groups.. its as if everyone is going behind each others backs and talking shit, and yet.. they try and be kool.. this isnt how friendships after highschool are supposed to end up. This isnt how I wanted them to end up. But it seems as if no matter what goes on.. There are still the little groups here and there.
Anyway..
Last night I drew.. I drew my heart out.. every feeling, every thought, every tear. I drew in my notebook until my hand hurt.. all night I worked on it.. Ive finally finished it.. and some other things as well.. I drew our old group.. but instead we were all spread out.. in cartoon figures btw.. and it just says.. "BROKEN FRIENDSHIP".. and we look so lost.. so deeply lost. I just dont know.
I talked to KC for a bit last night, about it, wich made me feel a little bit better.. and since david has never realy gotten to know any one of my friends he didnt know what to say.. except that he knew raj the most, and thought he knew dereck, and jess.. but didnt..
and KC is like davids brother.. so no questions there...
Well Im going up to Vallejo today.. So I have to go and get ready..
I hope when people read this that they understand and not judge me by what I am saying. Because what Im saying exactly is.. look at our group.. it spread out.. and yet even tho most of us or working on our lives.. and focusing on that.. doesnt mean we still cant be kool with eachother, and cant talk and such, because we can. and I hope everyone gets this..
Anyway.. I really have to go.
Anyway..
Last night I drew.. I drew my heart out.. every feeling, every thought, every tear. I drew in my notebook until my hand hurt.. all night I worked on it.. Ive finally finished it.. and some other things as well.. I drew our old group.. but instead we were all spread out.. in cartoon figures btw.. and it just says.. "BROKEN FRIENDSHIP".. and we look so lost.. so deeply lost. I just dont know.
I talked to KC for a bit last night, about it, wich made me feel a little bit better.. and since david has never realy gotten to know any one of my friends he didnt know what to say.. except that he knew raj the most, and thought he knew dereck, and jess.. but didnt..
and KC is like davids brother.. so no questions there...
Well Im going up to Vallejo today.. So I have to go and get ready..
I hope when people read this that they understand and not judge me by what I am saying. Because what Im saying exactly is.. look at our group.. it spread out.. and yet even tho most of us or working on our lives.. and focusing on that.. doesnt mean we still cant be kool with eachother, and cant talk and such, because we can. and I hope everyone gets this..
Anyway.. I really have to go.