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I went home for Thanksgiving. I love seeing my family, but somehow it never fails to irk me in someway. I'm not sure what or why it is...but I tend to leave with the feeling that something just isn't all that right. Around them I get the feeling that I need to compensate for something. But I'm not quite sure what it is yet. Perhaps its just me, I don't know.
Friday I came back to Jupiter, went to work, then drove up to Orlando with Don for his cousin's wedding. This was basically the wedding of the decade for me. Ever since I found out Huy and Abigail were getting married, I went crazy with excitement. They are the cutest thing ever. EVER!! I love them deeply, simply for the love they share for one another and the kindness they've shown don and myself. Not to mention Huy is one good looking man ;) and Abi the cutest chick ever :p She looked absolutely beautiful in her wedding gowns (both traditional and vietnamese). Huy too. It was all too cute, too cute...
>.> Except, perhaps, for the awkwardness of being around so many people I didn't know, don's family, and don's mama. The woman never fails to make me feel uncomfortable. I've been conditioned to it, I'm sure. I know its partly in my head, but I can't help expecting her to shun me in some observable and atrocious manner. Maybe I've convinced myself to expect it because I believe I deserve it. Maybe I just want to be tested. I want to know how I'd react. I honestly dont know. It's just something thats there and I make sure I know its there anychance I get.
Back at the homefront (Jupiter) I'm finding I need a better paying job or more time to work. I have a lot to do in these last two weeks, and I'm feeling ill. It definitely 'tis the season to be jolly...
Friday I came back to Jupiter, went to work, then drove up to Orlando with Don for his cousin's wedding. This was basically the wedding of the decade for me. Ever since I found out Huy and Abigail were getting married, I went crazy with excitement. They are the cutest thing ever. EVER!! I love them deeply, simply for the love they share for one another and the kindness they've shown don and myself. Not to mention Huy is one good looking man ;) and Abi the cutest chick ever :p She looked absolutely beautiful in her wedding gowns (both traditional and vietnamese). Huy too. It was all too cute, too cute...
>.> Except, perhaps, for the awkwardness of being around so many people I didn't know, don's family, and don's mama. The woman never fails to make me feel uncomfortable. I've been conditioned to it, I'm sure. I know its partly in my head, but I can't help expecting her to shun me in some observable and atrocious manner. Maybe I've convinced myself to expect it because I believe I deserve it. Maybe I just want to be tested. I want to know how I'd react. I honestly dont know. It's just something thats there and I make sure I know its there anychance I get.
Back at the homefront (Jupiter) I'm finding I need a better paying job or more time to work. I have a lot to do in these last two weeks, and I'm feeling ill. It definitely 'tis the season to be jolly...