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Blah, blah, blah. Leaving Czech Republic tomorrow and my boyfriend! I really, really don't want to go!! But I know I should, and that we both are in such better situations then last year. But still, the temptation to stay is alive and well; only, I'm not Natalie Portman in Garden State. I'm not being left behind or told to be patient or running screaming from my plane. I'm just going to get on my 4 planes tomorrow, be miserable and try to think of the positives. I'll be back in December, so it's not even bad. It just seems hard after being with Marek for 2 months. But justice will prevail? We'll both feel better after a week. Theres always something weird about returning though. Especially the having to pretend to be really, really excited to see your parents, who are generally more excited to see you. But after 24 hours in the air, it's an incredibly hard thing to suffer through. So I'll just pretend to go to sleep early. That always works. It's a new year with new beginnings. I feel more aware, less old and serious. Everything is going to be fine, I just have to stop thinking about it. I've got it all and I'm hungry for more... To new beginnings and forgetting the details of the past. So long amigos, see you on Island.