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[cryngmoonmaiden]

Why am I here? ..I don't even feel like I'm alive... I realize I'm crying every now and again. I woke out of it when I noticed I was sitting in an uncomfortable corner next to the furnice staring at the bird... or was it the dresser infront of me? Phase in... don't want to be here... phase out...

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[cryngmoonmaiden]

Guilt Free... *Looks at her misery that sleeps in the bed aside her.* You know I can't say there is a person I hate more, then the unhappiness that plagues my home. One of the reasons for me keeping him here was because I didn't want to get thrown out on the street. Yesterday he says to me, " I hope one day you are at the mercy of someone else." ... And then he says, " If you throw me out, I will tell the poilice that you have been keeping me here illegally (Not on the lease in a one bedroom apartment.) for over a year. He is the type of person that will distroy those he "cares" about needlessly.

After hearing that I'm froozen. Me and my dad won't have a place to stay all because of my kindness. I should have broke up with him back in December... I've tried to get him to leave before but he won't leave. And now I have this all to consider. And he says he is going ot use his friends as alibies. I don't really have a whole lot of friends compared to the number of people he hangs out with. And what friends I had with him, hell, they'd prolly side along with him.

I just wish he would die. If he was dead, I'd have nothing to worry about. I can honestly say, I don't care if he dies. Right now. Drops dead. *Stares at him on the bed.. waiting in anticipation.* If I had the energy... if the depression didn't rob me of that much will and concentration... I'd send darkness, sickness, and ill wishes his way 24/7... But then that would allow something more controlling then even this nothing feeling I have, to take use of me.

[anfrey]

that is fucking disgusting. if he's gonna pull that shit, you should pull some shit to get a no-contact order on him. it's like a restraining order, only worse. no-contact means no-contact.

[anfrey]

or move to south bend and come live with bunny and i :)

[cryngmoonmaiden]

Aww. Thanks for offering. I feel a little more secure now if things get hairy. No-contact... niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiccccccccccccccccccccccccce....