<3 thank you for such a awesome weekend.
So on friday night after work Shalen, Jay, Seanie, and I went on a road trip to Maine to see my father. The ride up there wasnt that bad..i just listened to some music and relaxed. It was nice..i havent been able to just chill out in quite some time.
So we got there and met up with my father. Ive never seen a bigger smile on his face in my entire life. He is so alone up in Maine and he was so happy that we were there. We went back to his trailor. I have to say it was wicked nice. It was pretty spacious and the lady that lived there before left everything so it looks nice. My father has lived in shit holes, so this must be heaven to him. Im just worried someone is going to take his job and his home away from him again. I dont want my father to ever hit rock bottom again, honestly i dont think he'll be able to get back up again.
I never realized how much shit my father actually went through, he talked to us about his childhood..all the drugs he did, all the laws he broke. and he told us what it was like to truly struggle..he said he was at the point were he was over the edge, with one push of wind and he would of fell off. He told us we were what helped him back off the edge and realize that there are reasons to keep going. I have opened my eyes to a lot of things after this weekend. I have missed me father so much.
We watched Fight Club. That movie was so awesome. Then we crashed, and the next day went to Freeport to shop...my father just handed each of us 100 dollars for christmas. and then he took us out for dinner..where it was extremley expensive and then he tossed us 20 for the ride home. I can tell my father is really trying to make up for loss time. I didnt want to leave, i cryed when we went passed him on the highway. I dont like that he has nothing to go home to but an empty house. I dont know how he does it...But he told me that he has never felt so free in his entire life. Im happy for him..that hes free from all the shit his past has held on him. I love him, and i regret ever having harsh feelings towards him for being absent for such a long time. He knows his mistakes and hes making up for them now. Im so thankful i got to spend the weekend with him.
So now..this morning i have to work at 10 and do prep work. Which sucks so so bad. My mother just informed me that i dont have to go home for dinner cause there just ordering take out which is cool i guess. So im going to just hang out, then shower..then go.
So bye for now.
<3
So we got there and met up with my father. Ive never seen a bigger smile on his face in my entire life. He is so alone up in Maine and he was so happy that we were there. We went back to his trailor. I have to say it was wicked nice. It was pretty spacious and the lady that lived there before left everything so it looks nice. My father has lived in shit holes, so this must be heaven to him. Im just worried someone is going to take his job and his home away from him again. I dont want my father to ever hit rock bottom again, honestly i dont think he'll be able to get back up again.
I never realized how much shit my father actually went through, he talked to us about his childhood..all the drugs he did, all the laws he broke. and he told us what it was like to truly struggle..he said he was at the point were he was over the edge, with one push of wind and he would of fell off. He told us we were what helped him back off the edge and realize that there are reasons to keep going. I have opened my eyes to a lot of things after this weekend. I have missed me father so much.
We watched Fight Club. That movie was so awesome. Then we crashed, and the next day went to Freeport to shop...my father just handed each of us 100 dollars for christmas. and then he took us out for dinner..where it was extremley expensive and then he tossed us 20 for the ride home. I can tell my father is really trying to make up for loss time. I didnt want to leave, i cryed when we went passed him on the highway. I dont like that he has nothing to go home to but an empty house. I dont know how he does it...But he told me that he has never felt so free in his entire life. Im happy for him..that hes free from all the shit his past has held on him. I love him, and i regret ever having harsh feelings towards him for being absent for such a long time. He knows his mistakes and hes making up for them now. Im so thankful i got to spend the weekend with him.
So now..this morning i have to work at 10 and do prep work. Which sucks so so bad. My mother just informed me that i dont have to go home for dinner cause there just ordering take out which is cool i guess. So im going to just hang out, then shower..then go.
So bye for now.
<3