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this entry is public so everyone can read it, because i think its important.
i learned something today. and monica, im not mad at you. and i'd do the same thing if i were in your position, so dont take this as me being upset, its just my thoughts... ideas... whatever. but im not mad at you in any way, shape, or form.
So monica and i... we go back. we used to be great friends, for a couple of years.... probably almost two? guessing. and then this year, we didnt have any classes together, and so we dont talk as much, online sometimes, but we dont see eachother alot. its harder to keep up with things. understandable. i havent made a huge effort myself in trying to save the friendship either. so im to blame too. she's having her sweet 16. and she's trying to figure out who to invite. she wants all her friends there, because that's how she is. doesnt want to leave anyone out, or hurt anyone. i've been there. so we're talking. and she's like, i want to talk to you. im having my sweet 16, its this day, here, at this time... blah blah blah. i want you to be there. but i dont want you to be uncomfortable with other people that will be there. so here's pretty much who i invited... and listed most of the people going. and i read through the list and im like wow, most of these people dont like me. so i tell her that. and im like, listen, this is your party and i dont want to start anything. she's like i know, i want you there, but i know if you go, then shit is gonna start. and im like then i wont go. so im not going. because of other people. and its like, finally there's an opportunity to salvage a tiny piece of whats left of our friendship and it seems impossible to do so. i dont even understand why so many people dont like me. i mean, what did i do that was so awful that these people just can't stand me? and that they cant tolerate me enough so that monica can have one incredibly awesome, deserved sweet 16? i dont get it. so maybe, someone could tell me what i did that was so awful. i've heard the "well you're an ugly whore" comment before, its not original, so dont put that in a comment, but if you seriously know what i did that was so wrong that you cant tolerate me for a night, then please, be my guest, and comment. i dont understand how anyone could be so awful to anyone else. yeah there's people that i dont like, but i dont put people down like that, and i dont start crap when it doesnt need to be started... im really sick of the shallow people.
i learned something today. and monica, im not mad at you. and i'd do the same thing if i were in your position, so dont take this as me being upset, its just my thoughts... ideas... whatever. but im not mad at you in any way, shape, or form.
So monica and i... we go back. we used to be great friends, for a couple of years.... probably almost two? guessing. and then this year, we didnt have any classes together, and so we dont talk as much, online sometimes, but we dont see eachother alot. its harder to keep up with things. understandable. i havent made a huge effort myself in trying to save the friendship either. so im to blame too. she's having her sweet 16. and she's trying to figure out who to invite. she wants all her friends there, because that's how she is. doesnt want to leave anyone out, or hurt anyone. i've been there. so we're talking. and she's like, i want to talk to you. im having my sweet 16, its this day, here, at this time... blah blah blah. i want you to be there. but i dont want you to be uncomfortable with other people that will be there. so here's pretty much who i invited... and listed most of the people going. and i read through the list and im like wow, most of these people dont like me. so i tell her that. and im like, listen, this is your party and i dont want to start anything. she's like i know, i want you there, but i know if you go, then shit is gonna start. and im like then i wont go. so im not going. because of other people. and its like, finally there's an opportunity to salvage a tiny piece of whats left of our friendship and it seems impossible to do so. i dont even understand why so many people dont like me. i mean, what did i do that was so awful that these people just can't stand me? and that they cant tolerate me enough so that monica can have one incredibly awesome, deserved sweet 16? i dont get it. so maybe, someone could tell me what i did that was so awful. i've heard the "well you're an ugly whore" comment before, its not original, so dont put that in a comment, but if you seriously know what i did that was so wrong that you cant tolerate me for a night, then please, be my guest, and comment. i dont understand how anyone could be so awful to anyone else. yeah there's people that i dont like, but i dont put people down like that, and i dont start crap when it doesnt need to be started... im really sick of the shallow people.