Still can't sleep
I'm must be the most backwards person in the world, I sleep all summer, but once the fall comes, just the smell in the air, I can't sleep anymore. This is horrible, because I'll be tired all the time. Guess it's time to refill my sleep meds again *sigh*.
Oh, well, money is tight again. I wished that we'd hurry and get our raises soon; it will be nice to see myself making 30k+ a year. Just me, alone, it will be so nice. I can quit working all the time, be the priestess I want to be, spend time with hubby, might be able to have a life, go to the gym. And low and behold, I just might get pregnant. But no rush (yeah, I'm 34 and trying to tell myself no rush), if it's meant to happen it will.
My stress level has reduced itself (except for finances) over this past year. Guess it is finally getting the job of my dreams!! Funny how life can do that, now I'm just waiting for the other shoe to fall. Maybe it will be the baby :) Here's a baby, and you complain about sleep now MUHAHAHAHAHA.
Welp, so, um, let's see. I like where life is leading me right now. I'm around people I used to hang around with, and we all are getting along pretty good. It sometimes surprises me to look back where I was 2 years ago, and to see myself where I am now. I'd be a good advocate for "People Change".
Money, Money, Money. Why do we have to have it :( It's just a depressing thing. The banks screw you in the drive through (hee hee) No, not really but it sounded funny. I am getting frustrated at myself and the way that I am handling my bills. Seems that because I am playing catch up with the bills that I cut myself short on other bills; which make me play catch up the next month, and so on and so forth. It's just frustrating. We were -200+ the other day. We have overdraft protection, every time we go over, they charge us $32. So If I'm like 7 dollars short, I'm then 39 dollars short. Makes a lot of sense huh. But I've got a PLC that is over drafted and over due on payment. So it's the only thing that is saving my a**.
Car payment is one month behind, mortgage is due, phone bill is due, electric is over due, utilities is over due, credit card bills 1/2 over due 1/2 due this month (October) Crap, if I ever get caught up, I'd love to start paying off. But I can't seem to get caught up. I've not taught at the Tech center this semester (they closed over the summer) and I'm really missing that extra $500 a month :(. You'd think that'd be no big deal, but s**t, that's a lot of money when you don’t have it no more.
I have no sense of money or time. Wow, what a realization. And I'm the one responsible for the bills. Yes, I know, hubby can take care of bills just the same. But I'm to busy making sure he doesn't have a heart attack just by the bill situation now. He really overreacts. He admitted that after our argument/discussion the other day.
Out account is now on the plus side, and I guess I'll go get my utilities and electric paid. Actually I'll pay electric when I leave off from LJ because I can pay it online. If I have enough in the account. I need to buy groceries, hair dye (yeah, it's not life or death, but you can see the gray for goodness sake). We've got bread, eggs, and bacon, cool-aide and spagetti-o's. Guess I can't complain to much, I still have a roof over my head, air conditioner. And a computer to whine on :) (Got Cheese)
Actually, this is kinda kewl, I get to get these off my mind, and I'm getting sleepy.
I have a new habit that I think I need to break, every time I see something kewl happen in front of me, I say "I wish" I've at least broke myself from saying, "Gee, I wish that I had a car like that" or "Gee, I wish I could have a job like that, family like that, money like that...." I've stopped all that and just started saying "I wish" that way I don't wish something bad on myself by accident. I'd hate for anything to happen that wasn't supposed to happen cause I freely said "I Wish ....." at the right time the Gods were feeling over generous (of being funny/vicious/froggy) and granted me an off the wall wish. "I wish my hair was multi-color" *Poof* Oh, wait, it already is :) But you get the drift.
Anyways, guess I better go back to bed now, curl up to hubby and see if I can't go to sleep now that I have a few things off of my chest.
Oh, yeah, one last thing, I really want to finish my book on "Children of War" I've got good resources, but I just have to get it going and finish it. Get it from my head onto paper :) So there is my one wish before I go to sleep "I wish to create/finish a book on "Children of War" to the best of my ability"
Love and Peas
Oh, well, money is tight again. I wished that we'd hurry and get our raises soon; it will be nice to see myself making 30k+ a year. Just me, alone, it will be so nice. I can quit working all the time, be the priestess I want to be, spend time with hubby, might be able to have a life, go to the gym. And low and behold, I just might get pregnant. But no rush (yeah, I'm 34 and trying to tell myself no rush), if it's meant to happen it will.
My stress level has reduced itself (except for finances) over this past year. Guess it is finally getting the job of my dreams!! Funny how life can do that, now I'm just waiting for the other shoe to fall. Maybe it will be the baby :) Here's a baby, and you complain about sleep now MUHAHAHAHAHA.
Welp, so, um, let's see. I like where life is leading me right now. I'm around people I used to hang around with, and we all are getting along pretty good. It sometimes surprises me to look back where I was 2 years ago, and to see myself where I am now. I'd be a good advocate for "People Change".
Money, Money, Money. Why do we have to have it :( It's just a depressing thing. The banks screw you in the drive through (hee hee) No, not really but it sounded funny. I am getting frustrated at myself and the way that I am handling my bills. Seems that because I am playing catch up with the bills that I cut myself short on other bills; which make me play catch up the next month, and so on and so forth. It's just frustrating. We were -200+ the other day. We have overdraft protection, every time we go over, they charge us $32. So If I'm like 7 dollars short, I'm then 39 dollars short. Makes a lot of sense huh. But I've got a PLC that is over drafted and over due on payment. So it's the only thing that is saving my a**.
Car payment is one month behind, mortgage is due, phone bill is due, electric is over due, utilities is over due, credit card bills 1/2 over due 1/2 due this month (October) Crap, if I ever get caught up, I'd love to start paying off. But I can't seem to get caught up. I've not taught at the Tech center this semester (they closed over the summer) and I'm really missing that extra $500 a month :(. You'd think that'd be no big deal, but s**t, that's a lot of money when you don’t have it no more.
I have no sense of money or time. Wow, what a realization. And I'm the one responsible for the bills. Yes, I know, hubby can take care of bills just the same. But I'm to busy making sure he doesn't have a heart attack just by the bill situation now. He really overreacts. He admitted that after our argument/discussion the other day.
Out account is now on the plus side, and I guess I'll go get my utilities and electric paid. Actually I'll pay electric when I leave off from LJ because I can pay it online. If I have enough in the account. I need to buy groceries, hair dye (yeah, it's not life or death, but you can see the gray for goodness sake). We've got bread, eggs, and bacon, cool-aide and spagetti-o's. Guess I can't complain to much, I still have a roof over my head, air conditioner. And a computer to whine on :) (Got Cheese)
Actually, this is kinda kewl, I get to get these off my mind, and I'm getting sleepy.
I have a new habit that I think I need to break, every time I see something kewl happen in front of me, I say "I wish" I've at least broke myself from saying, "Gee, I wish that I had a car like that" or "Gee, I wish I could have a job like that, family like that, money like that...." I've stopped all that and just started saying "I wish" that way I don't wish something bad on myself by accident. I'd hate for anything to happen that wasn't supposed to happen cause I freely said "I Wish ....." at the right time the Gods were feeling over generous (of being funny/vicious/froggy) and granted me an off the wall wish. "I wish my hair was multi-color" *Poof* Oh, wait, it already is :) But you get the drift.
Anyways, guess I better go back to bed now, curl up to hubby and see if I can't go to sleep now that I have a few things off of my chest.
Oh, yeah, one last thing, I really want to finish my book on "Children of War" I've got good resources, but I just have to get it going and finish it. Get it from my head onto paper :) So there is my one wish before I go to sleep "I wish to create/finish a book on "Children of War" to the best of my ability"
Love and Peas