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[cryingsoldier]

life is changing so quickly. thursday, i just found out that one of my friends from back home (whom i grew up with) died in iraq. i im pretty much in shock, and dont know how to react. one thing that i havnt known the answer to since i enlisted, i know now. until now i wanted to find a way out. always asking myself, "why the hell did i enlist in the first place?" i still dont know the answer to why, but i do know why im staying in. its the drive from the ones ive known that i have lost to the war. in the past 5 weeks, ive lost 2 people i knew from school, norman anderson and joshua snyder. i knew norman thru rec sports playing soccer and baseball. josh, i knew since i can remember. i can still remember in second grade on the bus to school, he sat next to my brother timmy and back then he was somewhat a buly to my brother and i. anyways he was picking on my brother and called him a stinker and my brother punched out 2 or 3 of his babyteeth. or him asking my sister out by singing be my baby tonight. or even just a couple of years ago before he enlisted when he and jeff statter were always over.

norman, killed by a suicide car bomber on october 19th (my sisters birthday) and josh, was shot while on patrol on wednsday the 30th. (the details i give are the ones that are on the news for the fact that it would be illegal for me to say anymore than that. and they graduated togeather in 02 and were rackmates in basic training.

i move on, with them driving me now to do even better. rest in peace and you both will forever be in my heart and thought.

as well as my sympathys go to the familys, because of me not being able to take leave and go to the memorials or funerals.