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I can't believe there are only 4 more days left of summer...
I havn't updated for like a week. This week has been fun. Sunday my mom went down to Newport for a week and I went into Boston with Katie then went over to Timmy's w/ Danny and Alex were we saw a prostitue get picked up and put poop on someone driveway, it was sucha crazy night. <33 I slept over Timmy's house then the next morning I met Heather at her docters appotiment in Boston and like around 5ish we left Boston and got droped off in Providence. We went to the mall, Thayer st, saw Alix, walked around, and I got to finnaly talk to Lex from Daughters...yay!. After that we got a ride back to her house where I watched her play DDR then we watched the absolutly amazingly lovely Degrasi <333. The next morning her Grandpa droped me off at Newport. So Tuesday I spent the day in Newport, I went to the beach with my mom and my uncle and cousins wich was fun. After the beach we went back to the appartments we always stay in and had a BBQ then went down and walked along Thames St. It was fun.
It was really....pleasing. When we were at the beach I went to a ledge of the huge rock and just...sat. I sat and looked out into the ocean...the same ocean I had been coming to once a summer for a week every year since I was 6. I sat up there and I thought. I thought about my past and my childhood. I thought about all the memories I have from Newport and from past summers and just from past years and it was really pleasing. For some reason this summer I've thought so much about my childhood.
Well the next day, Wednsday was a....crazy day that I won't forget. I took the bus home, early, from Newport becasue I was going to get lunch with my dad. He picked me up from where the Bush droped me off in Boston and we were going to go back to his house to eat. On the car ride home we were debating poltics, things like the war, bush, and the RNC. He started to get angry, like he normaly does, but the he got extemly angry and his face started to become red and he started to stare. We were near his house on 128 when he pulled the car over and yelled at me to get out, he then got out the car and swung open my door and pulled me out then threw down on the ground. He got on top of me and pinned me down and was yelling and swearing in my face. He grabed head and started hitting it against the ground then put his hands against the side of my face and started to push as hard as he could, yelling at me. He then began to punch me in my jaw repiditly, I kept begging him to stop, crying, saying that I was sorry and that I knew I was wrong, after punching me about 5 times he pushed his thumbs as hard as he could into my jaw. After about a minute or two of this he finnaly got off of m and picked up m bag, threw it and told me to "fucking walk home". I did. As I was walking along the highway a police stoped me and asked why I was walking so..I told him. My dad had come back around looking for me, saw the cop and pulled over. I ended up going back to the police station where I had to give a statment and so did my dad and after that the police office decided he need to call DSS and have the bring my dad to court. So there it is. My dads going to court...finnaly. For some reason this wasn't that big a of a deal to me..I guess it's because he's done it so many times to me in the past? I guess it's just this time the fucking scum bag is going to deal with the fucking consiquences. I fucking hate my father, with all my fucking heart. I have always hated him, my whole life. Not only is he a horrible father, he is a horrible person that I wish did not exsist. I'v never felt so much hate and anger towards one person befre.
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Wednsday night I went to BAGLY and hung out w/ Lauren before hand. It was ok. Yesterday was quite lovely. I got to hang out with Marya and Sara for the last time in a while. We had an amazing night, driving around, geting Sorbet and Ice cream. The swings were amazing, parks are just so fucking awsome at night time. I love them both alot and I'll really miss Marya. <3333
Today I went and hung out w/ Alyssa Shela Alex Brendan and other good natick people. It was a fun night. At like 9ish me and Shela went back to her house and just hung out for a while. Her sister is adorable.
I havn't updated for like a week. This week has been fun. Sunday my mom went down to Newport for a week and I went into Boston with Katie then went over to Timmy's w/ Danny and Alex were we saw a prostitue get picked up and put poop on someone driveway, it was sucha crazy night. <33 I slept over Timmy's house then the next morning I met Heather at her docters appotiment in Boston and like around 5ish we left Boston and got droped off in Providence. We went to the mall, Thayer st, saw Alix, walked around, and I got to finnaly talk to Lex from Daughters...yay!. After that we got a ride back to her house where I watched her play DDR then we watched the absolutly amazingly lovely Degrasi <333. The next morning her Grandpa droped me off at Newport. So Tuesday I spent the day in Newport, I went to the beach with my mom and my uncle and cousins wich was fun. After the beach we went back to the appartments we always stay in and had a BBQ then went down and walked along Thames St. It was fun.
It was really....pleasing. When we were at the beach I went to a ledge of the huge rock and just...sat. I sat and looked out into the ocean...the same ocean I had been coming to once a summer for a week every year since I was 6. I sat up there and I thought. I thought about my past and my childhood. I thought about all the memories I have from Newport and from past summers and just from past years and it was really pleasing. For some reason this summer I've thought so much about my childhood.
Well the next day, Wednsday was a....crazy day that I won't forget. I took the bus home, early, from Newport becasue I was going to get lunch with my dad. He picked me up from where the Bush droped me off in Boston and we were going to go back to his house to eat. On the car ride home we were debating poltics, things like the war, bush, and the RNC. He started to get angry, like he normaly does, but the he got extemly angry and his face started to become red and he started to stare. We were near his house on 128 when he pulled the car over and yelled at me to get out, he then got out the car and swung open my door and pulled me out then threw down on the ground. He got on top of me and pinned me down and was yelling and swearing in my face. He grabed head and started hitting it against the ground then put his hands against the side of my face and started to push as hard as he could, yelling at me. He then began to punch me in my jaw repiditly, I kept begging him to stop, crying, saying that I was sorry and that I knew I was wrong, after punching me about 5 times he pushed his thumbs as hard as he could into my jaw. After about a minute or two of this he finnaly got off of m and picked up m bag, threw it and told me to "fucking walk home". I did. As I was walking along the highway a police stoped me and asked why I was walking so..I told him. My dad had come back around looking for me, saw the cop and pulled over. I ended up going back to the police station where I had to give a statment and so did my dad and after that the police office decided he need to call DSS and have the bring my dad to court. So there it is. My dads going to court...finnaly. For some reason this wasn't that big a of a deal to me..I guess it's because he's done it so many times to me in the past? I guess it's just this time the fucking scum bag is going to deal with the fucking consiquences. I fucking hate my father, with all my fucking heart. I have always hated him, my whole life. Not only is he a horrible father, he is a horrible person that I wish did not exsist. I'v never felt so much hate and anger towards one person befre.
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Wednsday night I went to BAGLY and hung out w/ Lauren before hand. It was ok. Yesterday was quite lovely. I got to hang out with Marya and Sara for the last time in a while. We had an amazing night, driving around, geting Sorbet and Ice cream. The swings were amazing, parks are just so fucking awsome at night time. I love them both alot and I'll really miss Marya. <3333
Today I went and hung out w/ Alyssa Shela Alex Brendan and other good natick people. It was a fun night. At like 9ish me and Shela went back to her house and just hung out for a while. Her sister is adorable.