You are who you are...the trick is not getting caught
Its all snowy and sleety out and raining and crap and other schools closed for the afternoon..hell, offices are closing early, but i still have to go to work. Im being such a big baby about it too. I know i dont mind it once im there...its easy and its only for 6 hours. But I dont want to go right now!!
I called my dad and he said the roads are fine and if he were my boss and i called in bc of the snow hed tell me to find another job. then i called momma and shes like "well if your father says the roads are okay then you need to go to work jennifer."
Last nite my roommate and i were talking and shes thinking of being an ra next yr and she said something about having to help the residents on our floor with thier problems and how shes not sure she really wants to deal with the suicidal ones. And i was trying to like lessen her fears of it by saying "well how often will that happen? most of the time they will be stressed bc of school work or relationship problems" but shes like "it happens. trust me. Ive known people who have hurt themselves on purpose here"
This bothers me to NO END. Does she know about me and my incident last year? Did Christina tell her? I dont care if she did..i dont think. I mean she hasnt said anything up till now and shes still friends with me so it seems okay i guess. But I really want to know if she knows about me or if she was refering to other people.
I HATE CRYING. but here i am being a fucking idiot crying for no reason..or little reasons that dont deserve tears that piled up to be too much.
At this point i almost hope the roads are really really bad tonite and when i drive myself back to school i end up in a bad accident or something. That would change thier minds about sending someone out on a snowy day next time. :(
...clinging to a life thats not worth living...