It makes a sound like thunder. It makes me feel like rain....
Its a real shame when you think you've got everything you need. My family is now on good terms for good hopefully. And i had all the friends i needed. I thought. And thats all i needed. Were a few good friends and a good family to care about. Well right now i feel like i have/had no true friends. I can only think of ONE or TWO people who care about
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i miss you so much sometimes, i want to cry. distance is and probably always will be a strain on the relationship, and even though i may not act like it i still feel closer to you than any one else in the world. you are the one that removes my mask that i wear in front of everyone. you, are the only person besides the people in my family, that sees the real me and that scares me sometimes. you know all my insecurities, what makes me tick, when i'm pissed off and am just not showing it, when i'm happy, when i'm sad. yeah, this is probably just mushy stuff, and i'm like damn, i'm such a sap, but this is stuff i never tell you that i should tell you all the time. without you, my life would be a blur where i pretend in front of everyone. i don't have to pretend in front of you...you don't know how much that means to me.
i wish you knew how much i value you and us. because i do. and this is probably pointless but i want to get this all out. i worry about you so much over there. i worry that you'll forget about me, and what we've been through together. i worry about that. because high school has been tough without you beside me. you were my crutch all through middle school, so high school i had to learn to walk on my own. i did it, but i feel like sometimes i stumble. when you have problems down there, i just wish you could be back at your house and we could dance in the foozeball room like the old days, and watch dance videos hour upon hour. we've both grown up, and grown apart, but i don't want to keep going through life letting you go more and more every year.
i love you so much. words can't even express it sometimes. guys will come & go and even though sometimes i let them rule my life, if you ever need me I WILL BE THERE. i'm only one call away. and you are welcome here anytime, if you just need to get away. well i could type up a 5-paragraph comment here, but i'll just let you have fun reading all this :) lol. without you i'd be nothing - no lie, no bullshit, no nothing. that's the truth. i. love. you. maria michelle eisenhower. always. <3
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