[fanfic] I'll catch you when you fall
Title: I'll catch you when you fall
Prompt from Super Junior 100 Fic challenge 001. Freefall, Kangin/Eeteuk from miracle______
Pairing: KangTeuk
Genre: fluff. drama.
Summary: He was tired and his body felt like he was already in bed.
Rating: PG - 13
Warning: /
Words: 1.928
Disclaimer: i own nothing, like always
Challenge Archiv
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Eeteuk sat in front of his computer and stared at the monitor. He was tired and his body felt like he was already in bed. Nevertheless he had to do some research. He heard from their manager that some anti-fans were spreading rumours in the internet and he wanted to look for them.
He couldn’t let anything bad happen to his band.
With a loud yawn he clicked through the sites and followed attentive but tired the lines.
A knock on the door made him wince and he looked up, immediately closing the site he was currently on.
“Yes?”
He smiled a bit when Kangin looked through the door.
“Everyone is in bed now. You should go as well.”
Eeteuk just nodded a little bit, before his eyes wandered to the other side of the room.
“Where is Donghae?”
Kangin told him that their dongsaeng would spend the night at Eunhyuk’s room and the leader just sighed at those words.
“I hope they get some sleep. We have a full schedule tomorrow with all the promotions at the moment.”
He scratched his head and smiled at Kangin again, but his friend just glanced at him suspiciously.
.
“You should go to bed as well. We all know you are always the first one up, but nobody knows when you go to sleep, not even Donghae.”
Teukie remained silent at first before he got up and walked to the door to Kangin.
He leaned forward and kissed him slowly.
After a long and soft kiss they broke apart and Eeteuk snuggled a bit to Kangin’s chest. He sighed deeply when he felt a warm hand beginning to stroke over his back.
Just for a moment he enjoyed the caress before he detached himself and looked up.
“I am fine, Kangin-ah. As a leader I have to do a little bit more than all of you, but it is okay. Nothing to worry about. So go to sleep, okay?!”
He again placed a peck on Kangin’s lips, before releasing him and going back into the room.
Kangin didn’t want to leave his lover, but he knew he had no choice when Eeteuk was looking at him like. So he just nodded and smiled a bit, not very happy.
They wished each other a good night, before the door closed.
The leader went back to his desk and sat down again.
He sighed and opened the window of his browser.
It was two in the morning already and he kept working until 3:30 a.m.
He couldn’t find that much about the rumours, but other things were interesting too, so he stayed up until he fell asleep on his desk.
After a few minutes he woke up and decided to go to bed as well.
His eyes hurt and his whole body craved for rest.
His thoughts were still full of worry and the things he had to do the next morning.
As always it took another half an hour before he could find enough peace to finally fall asleep.
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The whole week he could only get two hours of sleep every night because of all the things he had to do, or better, he thought he had to do.
Eeteuk felt the weight of being the leader even more than before their debut. It was normal for him, but at the moment that wasn’t his only worry. Additionally he felt how he became sick again and how his body became weaker with each day.
He didn’t show the members, not even Kangin, who was worried all the time and who always had a caring glance directed to him.
Eeteuk felt the glances and they made him feel a little bit better, but not enough so they could take away everything bad.
After another performance he felt how his body began to strike.
But he couldn’t just sit down and let all the people see his weakness, he had to show them his strength as the leader.
His thoughts were filled with the responsibility he had put on himself.
Suddenly his legs became weak and he stumbled a little bit, but grabbed Kangin’s shirt at the last moment and held onto him tightly.
Strong arms embraced him and held him close.
“Everything okay, Teuk-ah?”
The whisper made him shiver, but Eeteuk just nodded and tried to detach himself from Kangin, but the other one wouldn’t let go of him.
“Just stay like this for a moment.”
He had to smile at those words. The older one knew how Kangin felt.
They hadn’t had much time for each other for the last few days and had barely kissed or hugged and of course they hadn’t had any sex.
He closed his eyes for a moment and allowed himself to relax for a minute in his lover’s arm, before a voice called out for him.
Now he broke the contact with Kangin and stood on his own feet again, inside still trembling and unstable, but at the outside strong and confident as always.
He smiled at the photographer and interviewer and answered their questions with a calm voice.
Kangin watched his friend and frowned.
He had worried about their leader for the whole week and this moment right before just confirmed his worries.
Eeteuk was close to collapsing because he never seemed to rest or get some sleep.
He was always busy with something even during their rides to the shows or back to home.
But as long as Eeteuk didn’t want to tell him anything, he couldn’t help him He had known him long enough now to know that his lover had to come to him when he needed his help. Otherwise he didn’t want help and then nobody would come near to him.
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At home the members who were present ate together before everyone either went to bed or did something else in their rooms.
They all sent worried looks to the leader. They all noticed the exhaustion and tiredness which was coming from him, but nobody, like Kangin, would go to him now.
Donghae wasn’t at home this evening, so Eeteuk had the room for himself again.
He actually trudged into his bedroom and closed the door right before he just fell onto the floor.
His eyes had been burning the whole week and he could feel how tears were coming, only due to his exhaustion and sickness.
He coughed and held one hand tightly to his chest.
“Eeteuk-ah~.. Can I come in?”
The voice made him look up but he didn’t move, he couldn’t move any further.
Eeteuk hesitated but he couldn’t say “no”, not to his boyfriend.
He smiled bitterly and called “Sure!” to the door.
When Kangin opened the door he expected to see his friend again in front of the computer, but he wasn’t there neither on the bed. Then his glance fell onto the floor and he froze for a moment.
“Eeteuk!!”
The younger one closed the door and kneeled down next to his friend.
His eyes full of worry he embraced Eeteuk and lifted him to put him down on the bed.
He wanted to say something but Eeteuk shook his head and just dragged him down next to himself.
He clang onto Kangin’s shirt and snuggled close to him.
Eeteuk felt how a little bit of the weight was lifted off his shoulders and then how his tears began to flow.
He sobbed and tensed for a moment.
“Shhh… don’t cry, baby.. I am here.”
Kangin was shocked by this sight. He knew how fragile Eeteuk could be, but it was rare to see him this weak and broken, just like a fallen angel who really had lost his wings.
They lay there for a moment, then Kangin heard the low and steady breath of his friend and he smiled as he looked into the sleeping face in front of him.
Carefully he moved a bit to lie in a better position before embracing his angel again.
He fell asleep as well after a while but woke up again when Eeteuk moved in his arms.
Kangin opened his sleepy his eyes and looked questioningly at his lover.
Eeteuk just smiled sadly before lowering his look.
“Please tell me what’s wrong. You are tired all the time and you even collapsed. I can’t stand this anymore!”
A caring hand stroked over Eeteuk’s cheek and he looked up again.
“It’s nothing. Really! I just felt tired and sick the whole week and all the stress with the promotions. I don’t know….”
Kangin sighed and kissed his angel’s forehead.
“You don’t have to do everything yourself. We are 13 members, we are all Super Junior. Just because you are our leader doesn’t mean you have to do everything, okay?! Everyone is worried about you. Wookie-ah and Donghae-ah even cried due to their worries about you.”
In the pause Eeteuk looked up, a bit shocked and sad too. He didn’t want to make the others cry. They shouldn’t worry, that’s why he was hiding all this.
“I know you didn’t want to worry us, but we all have eyes and we all see your pain and exhaustion. You always want to be strong, want to be our angel who brings us into the sky.”
He smiled and gave Teukie a soft kiss, before speaking again.
“You are our angel and your wings do a lot for us, but you have the strength of all of us. Sometimes you can let yourself fall to the earth; we catch you and take you with us to the sky.”
It was rare to hear such poetic words from his friend and it somehow amazed Eeteuk.
He smiled and snuggled again closer to Kangin again.
“Such beautiful words…”, he whispered smiling against Kangin’s chest.
“Now sleep. You have to rest. I don’t want you to collapse again, least during one of our performances or guestings.”
He wanted to protest, but Kangin kissed him tenderly and deeply and he knew he shouldn’t protest against this.
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The next day was the first morning after weeks where he could sleep as long as he wanted to, although he was up after 7 hours.
The bed next to him was empty and he wanted to get up when Donghae and Siwon came into the room.
They brought him breakfast and talked a bit about their worries about him.
They told him that Kangin had phoned the manager and told him that the leader was sick and had to rest at least for one day.
One after another all the members came and comforted him while he was just lying there and enjoyed all the comfort and brotherly love he got from all his dongsaengs.
They brought him all meals and everything he wanted, though it wasn’t really anything.
In the evening Kangin finally came at last because he had had schedules that day.
He brought Eeteuk’s favourite ice cream and sat down next to him.
The leader’s eyes were finally shining and clear again and his smile was bright like before.
“My angel…”, whispered Kangin quietly when he crawled under the blanket next to him.
“And.. how was your day?”
He smiled and embraced him with one arm, waiting for an answer.
“I felt like I was freefalling. And everyone caught me while I was falling.”
He ate some of the ice cream which Kangin fed him and smiled a little bit more when he looked up at him.
“And now… I am finally in your arms, ready to take over the sky!”