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Grace is coming home in ten days
-cue incessant ramblings, loads of excited OH YEAH etc-
that done, i cannot wait to see her. here's one relationship i cannot believe is 5 years old. it seems almost as if it were a thing of yesterday, maybe last week, that we'd be on the bus (190! seat before the curvy bend! shivering under the aircon!), or on our way to our customary QUICKLY bubble tea, or mugging in the chess (!) room =D it seems also, a slightly (but only slightly) longer time ago when i hated chess, hated xu yaping, hated the seniors. (i wonder where my dao reputation arose from) and how it changed, i've forgotten. but thats one thing in my life that was worth going to rg for =] Ironically, this da jie of mine is the one person who has always made me know that stuffs are just transient and ephemeral.
to put it simply, i love you.
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i hate what i see in the mirror nowadays. i hate the arrogance staring back at me. i hate the steely obstinate woman that looks me firmly in the eye, unafraid of criticism. because there is nothing to warrant the pride. no ounce of worth. underneath, is still the fearful girl, insecure and trembling. if i could only turn my back on the stupid things i've said.
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talking to evelyn has made me even more confused and afraid and downright miserable about the current state of affairs between me and _____ . i dont want to say anything in case the wrong people read it but, i just wished i didnt have to deal with the affairs of the *thumps chest* but i miss him, i havent seen him since the movie. but it doesnt mean anything.
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by the way in my quiz? i lied. what makes a guy work for me is humour.
otherwise, so what if my favourite word is pSUEdo, i still <3s tarmac
also, legally blonde is my fave movie without a doubt so you can like about impale yourself with a stiletto now.
also? is it really that difficult? -cue enormous guffaw-
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-cue incessant ramblings, loads of excited OH YEAH etc-
that done, i cannot wait to see her. here's one relationship i cannot believe is 5 years old. it seems almost as if it were a thing of yesterday, maybe last week, that we'd be on the bus (190! seat before the curvy bend! shivering under the aircon!), or on our way to our customary QUICKLY bubble tea, or mugging in the chess (!) room =D it seems also, a slightly (but only slightly) longer time ago when i hated chess, hated xu yaping, hated the seniors. (i wonder where my dao reputation arose from) and how it changed, i've forgotten. but thats one thing in my life that was worth going to rg for =] Ironically, this da jie of mine is the one person who has always made me know that stuffs are just transient and ephemeral.
to put it simply, i love you.
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i hate what i see in the mirror nowadays. i hate the arrogance staring back at me. i hate the steely obstinate woman that looks me firmly in the eye, unafraid of criticism. because there is nothing to warrant the pride. no ounce of worth. underneath, is still the fearful girl, insecure and trembling. if i could only turn my back on the stupid things i've said.
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talking to evelyn has made me even more confused and afraid and downright miserable about the current state of affairs between me and _____ . i dont want to say anything in case the wrong people read it but, i just wished i didnt have to deal with the affairs of the *thumps chest* but i miss him, i havent seen him since the movie. but it doesnt mean anything.
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>>> EDIT
by the way in my quiz? i lied. what makes a guy work for me is humour.
otherwise, so what if my favourite word is pSUEdo, i still <3s tarmac
also, legally blonde is my fave movie without a doubt so you can like about impale yourself with a stiletto now.
also? is it really that difficult? -cue enormous guffaw-
<<< END EDIT