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At this point in my life, I feel that I'm just in it for the moment.
I find myself doing spurr of the moment things at random times.
I guess that's a good thing b/c you only live once.
But then again it has it has negative sides too.
You end up calling people you never talk to asking them things & having them get mad.
OR calling people you do talk to.. and they act weird to you b/c you're around certain people.
I want something concrete in my life.
Something that always stays the same no matter what.
I wouldn't mind having a boyfriend.. but then again I don't know if that's even what I really want right now.
Plus to have that, I'd have to actually meet a boy that was actually interested in me for more than a week... and doesn't just use girls all of the time.
I met a boy and we hung out for a while today and played put put.
That was fun, but then again I don't know if we really clicked I guess.
We'll see if he calls- He knows the number.
I guess it was just so easy in high school to find a boyfriend b/c no matter what everybody was around...
Now that I'm actually single.. and wouldn't mind having one.. there's nobody there which sucks.
It's not that I need a guy in my life, but I wouldn't mind having one.
Plus finding out that my ex-boyfriends new girlfriend has 4 kids... makes me feel pretty low as of the time.
Everything happens for a reason though.
Some things are actually looking up for a while though- for how long.. I don't know.
But once again...
I'm just in it for the moment.
I find myself doing spurr of the moment things at random times.
I guess that's a good thing b/c you only live once.
But then again it has it has negative sides too.
You end up calling people you never talk to asking them things & having them get mad.
OR calling people you do talk to.. and they act weird to you b/c you're around certain people.
I want something concrete in my life.
Something that always stays the same no matter what.
I wouldn't mind having a boyfriend.. but then again I don't know if that's even what I really want right now.
Plus to have that, I'd have to actually meet a boy that was actually interested in me for more than a week... and doesn't just use girls all of the time.
I met a boy and we hung out for a while today and played put put.
That was fun, but then again I don't know if we really clicked I guess.
We'll see if he calls- He knows the number.
I guess it was just so easy in high school to find a boyfriend b/c no matter what everybody was around...
Now that I'm actually single.. and wouldn't mind having one.. there's nobody there which sucks.
It's not that I need a guy in my life, but I wouldn't mind having one.
Plus finding out that my ex-boyfriends new girlfriend has 4 kids... makes me feel pretty low as of the time.
Everything happens for a reason though.
Some things are actually looking up for a while though- for how long.. I don't know.
But once again...
I'm just in it for the moment.