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I am not okay. I am desolate. I barely feel any emotions, but when I do, all I feel is overwhelming depression and dismay. I ache in a way I cannot describe. It hurts to be alive. I feel like that sounds so over dramatic and maudlin, but it's true. There is some sort of physiological response to an all consuming, deadening depression that is actually painful. It's a dull pain, I guess the closest thing I could liken it to would be a migraine of the upper chest region. All I know is that I hurt in every way possible, and I see no reason to even emerge from my bed anymore. I could sleep forever, and that would be just fine.