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[cry_for_hope]

I'm really kind of confused right now. I just remeber looking back to the end of senior year and thinking how great my summer was going to be. i had the greastest friends anyone could have asked for but then it all seemed to change. everyone just got so busy and wrapped up in thier own lives that we just kind of lost contact. One night we all hung out and it relaly felt great to see everyone again and it made me realize how much i missed everyone. but at the same time i think irealy fucked up all the great friendships i had. I spent more of the night thinking that they all hated me and thats why no one has kept in contact with me but i finally now realize that in reality it was me. These were the best friends i could of ever asked for and i feel like i blew it all.. i mean ya people change but i miss what we had i really do. and now everyone is leaving and going off to school and i just look and see how i spent my whole summer worrying about what i didnt have .. when i could have made our friendship grown stronger and had the best summer of my life.... like it was supposed to be
i really wish idid things differently

eh life is so confusing.

i need sleep.. goodnight everyone