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its amazing i really am still alive
the only reason why i am updating is because i really need time to vent
After i graduated i decided to move in with brendan..and its been so wonderful. until now that is. and the problem isnt even between us we are actually very happy but his parents are being complete assholes over everything we pay them rent every single week but we arent allowed to have or touch practically anything in the house.. for example this weekend brendan and i went to long island(which was absolutley amazing by the way) and when we came home sunday night we went into our room and they fucking took out our air conditioner because thiers broke. so ofcoarse we went and got another one ( a much better one that is) to piss them off. but the point is everything has been so great almost even perfect and now all of sudden they decide to be assholes and get on brendans ass for everything.. i just thought getting out of my house was the best thing for me i was so much happier and ive learned so much but now its like im so confused they keep threatening to throw us out and that really scares me because i would have nowhere to go. and yes even though my mother said i could go back if i ever wanted to the truth is i really dont want to. and i guess thats because even though things are tough right now i realy am much happier. I realized a lot about my house.. all of these years i've done nothing but hate my dad and hate everything he ever did but now i realize that maybe he's not such an asshole but he's really sick. he has so much wrong with him health wise that it makes him absolutley miserable. and its gotten so much worse since ive moved out .. i hate going over there and looking at him becuase it looks like hes dying right in front of my eyes. theres a lot that i wish i could take back. but ijust dont know
i have a lot of other things that are going on right now that i dont really wish to share online but there really bothering me. im just so happy i have brendan he is honestly the best thing that has every happened to me and without him i dont know where i would be
but what i really miss is my friends. i guess when they say after high school everything changes its really true because i dont talk to anyone anymore. its almost as if they have forgotten all about me noone every attempts to call me or anything
okay i think i am done venting
the only reason why i am updating is because i really need time to vent
After i graduated i decided to move in with brendan..and its been so wonderful. until now that is. and the problem isnt even between us we are actually very happy but his parents are being complete assholes over everything we pay them rent every single week but we arent allowed to have or touch practically anything in the house.. for example this weekend brendan and i went to long island(which was absolutley amazing by the way) and when we came home sunday night we went into our room and they fucking took out our air conditioner because thiers broke. so ofcoarse we went and got another one ( a much better one that is) to piss them off. but the point is everything has been so great almost even perfect and now all of sudden they decide to be assholes and get on brendans ass for everything.. i just thought getting out of my house was the best thing for me i was so much happier and ive learned so much but now its like im so confused they keep threatening to throw us out and that really scares me because i would have nowhere to go. and yes even though my mother said i could go back if i ever wanted to the truth is i really dont want to. and i guess thats because even though things are tough right now i realy am much happier. I realized a lot about my house.. all of these years i've done nothing but hate my dad and hate everything he ever did but now i realize that maybe he's not such an asshole but he's really sick. he has so much wrong with him health wise that it makes him absolutley miserable. and its gotten so much worse since ive moved out .. i hate going over there and looking at him becuase it looks like hes dying right in front of my eyes. theres a lot that i wish i could take back. but ijust dont know
i have a lot of other things that are going on right now that i dont really wish to share online but there really bothering me. im just so happy i have brendan he is honestly the best thing that has every happened to me and without him i dont know where i would be
but what i really miss is my friends. i guess when they say after high school everything changes its really true because i dont talk to anyone anymore. its almost as if they have forgotten all about me noone every attempts to call me or anything
okay i think i am done venting